Part 11 Eyes Wide Open....Wendy-Louise Walker...Psychology 101

Eyes Wide Open

by Fiona Barnett

Wendy-Louise Walker

Hypnotic responsiveness is positively correlated with intelligence. - Wendy-Louise Walker 

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‘Do a classic induction,’ I asserted. ‘Something very seventies.’ 

My therapist walked me through an imaginary forest. ‘…you come to a dark area in the woods where there’s a stone staircase that leads underground. You descend the stairs one at a time: Ten…nine…eight…’ 

Damn it! You’re doing it wrong again. You’re supposed to count forwards, not backwards. ‘Ahhhh!’ I moaned, ‘The right side of my head aches.’ 

‘Let’s go in there. Let’s go into that part of your brain.’ 

At the base of the imaginary stairs, I start to fall – down the rabbit hole. I land with a thud on the chequered floor. 

‘Go through the green door…’ he suggests. 

I walk through the empty garden. I hear a child crying. Eight-year-old Alice sits at the head of the Hatter’s tea party, weeping. 

‘Put your arm around her,’ my therapist suggested. 

‘No, she wants me to ask her what’s wrong.’ 

‘Ask her what’s wrong.’ 

‘She’s lonely and has no friends.’ Alice, I implore, ‘Please show me what’s wrong?’ 

I see a man’s naked crotch sat on a chair beneath a table. To my right, light shines through a draped tablecloth. I am in Nanna Holowczak’s kitchen. 

‘I’m being raped. I’m very little. I’m beneath the table. His cock is in my mouth and I’m choking.

Tap-tap-tap… My therapist then asks me the dreaded question I was avoiding – the whole reason for this session: ‘Tell me about Wendy-Louise Walker…’ 

A vivid scene suddenly appears before me. I am in a little cave chiselled out of the bedrock. Thick black bars are in front of me. The cavern ceiling touches my head, obscures my view of the ‘White Coats’ and the upper part of their torsos as they move about the black-and-white chequered lab floor. It is the cage beneath Holsworthy, only this time it is not a fuzzy dreamy image. This is crisp and clear. This is the same cage where I bonded with the blonde children whom Chang and his Delta soldiers butchered, the same cage in which Chang ordered his dog to rape me, the same cage I was trapped in while the White Coats stood and laughed and mocked as they electrocuted me with cattle prods. One of those White Coats was Antony Kidman. Another was Wendy-Louise Walker. 

Then I saw it, a close up of Walker’s creepy face, her bulging eyes staring deep into mine. 

‘Was she hypnotising you?’ my therapist guessed the obvious. 

‘Yes...’ 

‘Now what do you see?’ 

‘They’re tossing me up and down in a white blanket, to teach me the sensation of falling, so they can use it my induction…’ 

'Now what’s happening?’ 

‘I see a small wading pool with striped sides. I think they’re drowning me in it.’ I cough. ‘I think they’re electrocuting my whole body in it. Is that possible? Can they electrify the water?’ 

‘Yes, they certainly can.’ Suddenly, my body spasms in agony as the pain of whole-body electrocution hits. I scream, and scream, and scream at the top of my lungs, while simultaneously burying my being into the lounge, clawing through the fabric, trying to the escape the agony. This is the first time in six years I have abreacted so. 

The moment passes, and I weep into the pillows. 

Suddenly, I am flooded with scenes of child soldier training at Holsworthy, Jason and our team members encouraging me to keep going, to do things a certain way, to avoid Colonel Chang. 

‘I miss my team,’ I quietly sobbed… 

The vision suddenly changed again. This time I am looking down into the chaotic cockpit of a helicopter that is out of control and spinning, nose first, toward the ground. ‘I see a helicopter spiralling! Our helicopter is crashing! It’s spinning!’ 

‘Okay,’ my therapist asserted, ‘Time to say goodnight to the helicopter. I’m bringing you back now.’ 

I emerged from the abreaction in shock. I had been triggered by reading Wendy-Louise Walker’s research papers. 

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HYPNOSIS OPENS DOOR TO HEALING 

Sydney Morning Herald, 18 March 2004 

In the 1950s there were five big hypnosis labs in the world - four in North America and the other at Sydney University, under the guidance of professors John Phillip Sutcliffe  and Gordon Hammer. It was partly due to the interest they fostered that the research continues. 

Dr Wendy-Louise Walker was a student at Sydney University during that period. She went on to teach hypnosis at the university, delivers lectures for the Australian Hypnosis Society and has used hypnosis in psychological practice over the past 40 years. 

‘Hypnosis is variable, imaginative and very creative, but it is not a simple, single treatment modality. We do not treat patients by hypnosis,’ she says. ‘During hypnosis the practitioner works with certain characteristics of the altered state of consciousness - suggestibility, increased imagination, and dissociation - to facilitate the learning of new skills or the integration of different views.’ 

A patient is able to distinguish between different mental functions; in pain relief, for example, a patient can be helped to change the perception of pain and to decrease the sensation of it. 

Studies have shown distinct physiological changes in the brain during hypnosis. Research by US psychologist Dr Helen Crawford has demonstrated that during analgesic hypnosis, the executive functions of the frontal lobe activate to work with other parts of the brain to inhibit the perception of pain… 

Walker has helped several patients apprehensive about the pain of childbirth. ‘I train them to put themselves in hypnosis and ask them to choose a certain piece of music. When the music comes on, my patient takes herself serenely into hypnosis - you rehearse this. If people speak to her, she can respond, but in this state, she will register the sensation but not the pain.’ 

She is also treating several police officers suffering from post-traumatic stress disorder. ‘I use music as a pathway to and through trance, with my words woven in with the repeated suggestion that, bit by bit, as they feel the glory of the music, the harmony, little bits of emotional debris from their traumas will begin floating away. The memory will stay clear, you don't want to lose that, but the emotional debris - the fear, the anger, the bitterness - will slowly float away over time.’ 

About 10 to 15 per cent of the population are seen as highly hypnotisable; the same percentage are not good subjects, and the rest are average. Barnier says: ‘It's a figure that parallels the circumstances for any treatment. Some people are more susceptible to particular drugs than others.’ 

There are clinical measurements to gauge hypnotisability, but the best subjects tend to have good attention abilities and become easily absorbed in activities. 

The Australian Society of Hypnosis runs regular courses for doctors, dentists and psychologists. A few years ago, Sydney GP Dr Monica Moore attended one and ended up introducing the technique into her practice. She sees the conscious mind as a  computer screen that allows about eight windows to be open at one time. ‘The subconscious mind is the computer hard drive that sometimes makes connections that are not helpful. Hypnosis is a tool for reworking those connections in the subconscious mind…’ 

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Following the initial release of Eyes Wide Open, I was contacted by Ben, a retired navy seaman and lawyer. The first thing he said to me was: ‘I’ve been trying to get hold of you for years!’ Ben then stunned me with a story about his friend Keith Dawes, assistant to Wendy Louise Walker: 

In late 2015, Ben and Keith were watching television when my press conference footage appeared on TV. Suddenly, Keith blurted: ‘Wendy and I have decided to help that girl.’ Keith then told Ben about his and Wendy’s MK-ULTRA work with the kids kept in cages beneath Holsworthy. By then Wendy had become a slave to the system she joined in her youth. She was not permitted to buy a home, in case she had to be uprooted and moved quickly. Following my 2015 documentary expose of Holsworthy, the military transferred the human lab rats to RAAF Base Glenbrook at the foot of the Blue Mountains and simultaneously moved Wendy to a rental property in nearby Leura. 

Keith and Wendy’s attempt to help me was an article they submitted for publication in the Australian Journal of Clinical and Experimental Hypnosis. However, Graham Burrows redacted the paper. When Burrows died, Wendy tried to persuade Kevin McConkey to reinstate her paper in its original format, but he too refused. Wendy said a clue to Project MKULTRA being conducted at Holsworthy lay in the sample of children cited in her research publications, because those children were in fact the lab rats kept in cages beneath Holsworthy. Ben told me to read between the lines of those papers. 

Ben said he felt unsure of Keith’s testimony, until he was coincidentally contracted to assist with electrical work at the Glenbrook Air Force base. While at Glenbrook, the base’s permanent electrician told Ben he wanted him to meet a strange character who, along with several other adult victims, lived in an area beneath the base’s main building. The stranger had reddish-brown dark hair, and although he told Ben he was 57, he only looked only 40 years old. During their five-minute conversation, the man told Ben he was one of the caged kids raised at Holsworthy who had been transferred to RAAF Base Glenbrook. The stranger was permitted to roam the base due to his compliance. The other victims were not allowed out because they were either to aggressive or, according to the base electrician, ‘Too far gone to save.’ The stranger was familiar with the ‘Light Man’ that I mentioned in my story. 

Graham Dene Burrows died on 10 January 2016, aged 77 years. Keith Dawes died on 2 June 2016, aged 67 years. After Keith died, Ben tried to locate Wendy, with the intention of getting a copy of the redacted article she allegedly wrote to help me. By the time he arrived at 20 Blackheath Street in Leura, the house was empty. Wendy Louise Walker had died on 30 August 2018, aged 83 years. 

Perhaps Ben was right. Perhaps Walker and Dawes grew a conscience in their final days, and they intended to help me by publishing an article. Or maybe my instincts were more accurate: they were using an unwitting Ben to access and silence me again. 

It was Ben’s story that inspired me to take a closer look at Keith Dawes and Wendy Louise Walker. I found major hints in Keith Dawes’ CV, suggesting his involvement in Project MK-ULTRA:

- Sydney University (1970) BA in Psychology and Education (minors in Philosophy, Anthropology and Fine Arts); (1971) BSc in Psychology / Zoology (minors in Botany, Math, Physics, Chemistry, Medical Science); (1972) Dip Ed (Student placement at Fort St High School); (1984) Master of Psychology. 

- Macquarie University (1986) Master of Science (Implicit & Explicit Memory in Post Hypnotic Amnesia). 

- Australian Society of Hypnosis (1988) Dip. Clinical Hypnosis 

- (2007) PhD (Tacit knowledge) 

- (1972 to 1975) Taught Science at Fort St Boys High (selective school for gifted kids). 

- (1983) Lectured at Mitchell College in Bathurst. 

- (1986) Lectured in subject ‘Exceptional Children’ at Sydney University. 

- (1990 to 2000) taught psychology at Sydney University. 

- (2008 to 2010) taught tacit knowledge and implicit knowledge in France. 

Wendy-Louise Walker was a Clinical and Forensic Psychologist, inaugural President of the NSW Psychologists Board, President of the Australian Society of Hypnosis, and Editor of the Australian Journal of Clinical and Experimental Hypnosis. Her published writings focused on variables highly pertinent to MK-ULTRA. Viewed in the context of CIA mind control, Walker’s writings provide insight to MK objectives and methods, and clues to healing from the abuse she and her fellow monsters perpetrated against the likes of me. Her writings support my hypotheses concerning the MK subject selection, abuse and integration processes I espoused in Eyes Wide Open. 

Below I summarise Wendy-Louise Walker’s pertinent writings on hypnosis. I urge you also to read between the lines. When Walker refers to ‘damaged subjects’ she is talking about MK-ULTRA victims like me. When she discusses the ‘hypnotisability of highly gifted subjects’ and the ‘hypnotisability of child abuse victims’ – she is talking about the Holsworthy victims. When she mentions the use of music to induce / trigger dissociation in gifted subjects – she is sharing their MK methods with the reader. Throughout her writings, Walker says, ‘it seems that…’ or ‘I believe that…’ When she does this, she is in fact sharing knowledge gained from MK-ULTRA experiments that is not published mainstream. I add the odd ‘Note’ to draw your attention to something I recognise as particularly relevant to the MK-ULTRA methods Walker and her associates used on me. I summarise and synthesise three of Walker’s papers in this fashion: 

1. An Introduction to Hypnosis: Student Handbook. 472 

2. The Gifts and Vulnerabilities of the Highly Hypnotisable: Relevance for Therapy. 473 

3. Combining music and words as a pathway through hypnosis: Practical guidelines. 474

AN INTRODUCTION TO HYPNOSIS: 

STUDENT HANDBOOK 

This Introduction was originally written in 2004 by Dr Wendy-Louise Walker for distribution to students starting the Diploma in Clinical Hypnosis conducted by the NSW Branch of the Australian Society of Hypnosis. In 2014, Walker gave permission for this publication to be provided to students undertaking the Diploma in all states. 

DEFINITION OF HYPNOSIS 

Hypnosis is an altered state of consciousness. It causes a partial lifting of the executive (i.e., background) controls of consciousness. Hypnosis acts on certain aspects of the altered state of consciousness, namely suggestibility, increased imagination, and dissociation. Hypnotic responsiveness is identified by measuring: 

1. Absorption; i.e., the capacity to become lost in experience (Measure: Tellengen Absorption Scale). 

2. Dissociation proneness, which is inherited, and exaggerated or distorted by childhood abuse and over-strict punishment. (Measure: Dissociative Experiences Scale, which wrongly assumes all dissociation is abnormal). 

3. Vividness of sensory imagery (Measure: Betts Questionnaire of Mental Imagery). Most gifted hypnosis subjects have good sensory imagery. 

The hypnosis experience depends on an interaction of many variables, including the subject’s hypnotisability, cognitive ability (especially vividness of imagery), expectations, and the hypnotist's suggestions. Hypnotic responsiveness is more an ability than a personality trait. Highly hypnotisable subjects naturally shift in and out of altered states of consciousness in everyday life. 

During hypnosis, the practitioner's suggestions focus on progressively narrowing focus of attention, and on ignoring external and internal distractions. Hypnosis inductions involve the notion of moving. Classic inductions used on me in the 1970s moved down, deeper and deeper asleep. Modern inductions concentrate on moving further and further forward, into a meditational state. Hence the modern focus on meditation, as hypnosis and meditation are considered different paths to the same place. 

THE HYPNOSIS PROCESS 

Walker describes the hypnosis process, beginning with the three major consciousness control systems that hypnosis disables: 

1. Attention. The subject enters hypnosis by (a) changing her focus of attention, and (b) progressively surrendering her executive control of consciousness to the hypnotist. Attention is the accessing, focussing control that influences what the mind processes. Attention is also involved in accessing memory. Attention can be under voluntary control when one is in active, directed, problem-solving mode of consciousness. Alternatively, attention can float randomly, unfocussed, and uncontrolled when one is in passive, receptive mode of consciousness. In hypnosis, the subject’s attention is focused inward rather than on the external world. The hypnotist’s instructions connect to the subject’s inner world. The hypnotist directs the subject’s focus of attention. 

2. Critical Self-Awareness is a major consciousness control. It develops in childhood, and teenage years. It is the constant monitoring of one's own thoughts and actions that accompany waking consciousness. It reaches the forefront of attention when highly threatened or anxious; or it is a background hum when one is safely alone, reading a novel. This mechanism often malfunctions in the damaged patient, causing great subjective discomfort. Hypnosis causes a partial suspension of critical self-awareness. It may lift early in the hypnotic induction, since self-watching is incompatible with hypnosis. The suspension of this function allows the absorption in imagination, which is central to hypnosis. 

3. Vigilant Monitoring is the scanning of the outside world, the detection and analysis of cues, physical and interpersonal, that accompanies waking consciousness. This is also partly suspended during hypnosis. This function is also disrupted in PTSD victims, since hypervigilance is a main PTSD symptom. This function must be partly suspended before one can enter hypnosis and, the further one goes into hypnosis, the more distant the threats within external reality become. This contributes also to the increased reality and vividness of involvement in imagined activities in hypnosis. 

Abstracting, Comparing and Interpreting are the ongoing data processing of the mind-computer. There is a partial suspension of some of the abstracting, comparing, and interpreting functions of consciousness in hypnosis. The hypnotist’s words are taken literally. The words elicit strong feelings and imagery. Music similarly provokes imagery and strong feelings during hypnosis. Owing to partial suspension of the abstracting, comparing and interpreting functions of consciousness, the subject tolerates logical incongruity. 

DISSOCIATION (Double-Tracking) 

Going into hypnosis, there is an increased ability to dissociate. Damaged, highly hypnotisable subjects have their fears and rages split off from the object. Dissociation can also refer to running parallel streams of consciousness. This is a normal phenomenon for the dissociation-prone, who are highly hypnotisable. Examples of double tracking in hypnosis include automatic writing and the hidden observer phenomenon (a part of the mind that functions separately, experiencing things which the subject is unaware of). 

The term ‘dissociation’ can also denote a maladaptive defence mechanism of the personality, where whole parts of the ego system are separated by amnesia and function independently (e.g., multiple personalities). 

Walker said: 

Hypnosis can be used to treat the amnesia barriers between parts of consciousness and personality, and to achieve integration.

THE RELAXATION RESPONSE 

Entering hypnosis is associated with the relaxation response, a combination of mental quiet and physical relaxation, accompanied by a slowing of heart rate, a lowering of blood pressure, and beneficial changes in body chemistry. 

During hypnosis, one can be either unrelaxed, or re-live a dreadful trauma with powerful negative feelings, or imagine and experience with great subjective reality, vivid imagery and strong feelings. 

Hypnosis can be used to treat the amnesia barriers between parts of consciousness and personality, and to achieve integration. The typical hypnosis state is one of eyes closed, physical relaxation, and inner focus of attention. Most inductions incorporate the notion of relaxation, and it is easier to enter hypnosis with accompanying relaxation than without it. This association between hypnosis and the relaxation response links up with the imaginative involvement dimension. 

INVOLVEMENT & ABSORPTION: SENSORY IMAGERY & SUBJECTIVE REALITY 

Hypnosis brings an increasing involvement and loss of self in the experience. Highly hypnotisable subjects have a greater capacity for involvement (e.g. in reading or daydreaming). In hypnosis, sensory imagery becomes more vivid. The subject also has an enhanced sense of subjective reality in what is being imagined. This increased involvement stems from the partial lifting of the three major consciousness control systems mentioned earlier. Absence of the analysing and damping-down effects of these monitoring systems permits the enhanced experience of feelings and sensory imagery. 

What is imagined during hypnosis is more vivid, subjectively real, and elicits strong feelings compared to what is imagined in the waking state. 

After reaching a certain level of hypnosis, in response to the hypnotist’s suggestions: 

Hypnosis facilitates experiences like synaesthesia and eidetic imagery for those who can already do this. 

[Note: Synaesthesia is the merging of senses that aren't normally connected. The stimulation of one sense causes an involuntary reaction in one or more of the other senses. Eidetic imagery is the ability to remember an image in so much detail, clarity, and accuracy that it is as though the image were still being perceived.] 

The visual memories of high visual-spatial IQ children were enhanced using hypnosis, so they could recall location and target details. You can see how hypervigilance was enhanced through trauma, to produce desirable soldiers. 

RESPONSE TO SUGGESTION 

In hypnosis, there is an increased compliance with, and receptivity to, suggestion. The subject is likely to do and experience what the hypnotist suggests. The subject is receptive to post-hypnotic suggestion. The subject is more likely to incorporate the hypnotist's suggestions into her self-concept, little children incorporate the evaluative comments of their parents (good/bad, pretty/ugly, lovable/unlovable) into their developing self-concepts. 

[Note the potential for using hypnosis to bond a victim to her perpetrator, to create new personalities, in a child whose brain has been washed clean and made ripe for suggestion.] 

Highly hypnotisable subjects are more suggestible in the waking state compared to others, and hypnosis accentuates this. By the time they reach adulthood, gifted subjects develop protection against this suggestibility; but these protective controls dissolve again when they enter hypnosis.

[Note: This is another reason why high visual-spatial IQ kids made ideal MK-ULTRA candidates.] 

Hypnotic suggestion can be effective in the waking state after hypnosis has ended, and these are called post-hypnotic suggestions. The hypnotist’s suggestions or comments can create strong expectancies concerning the subject’s hypnosis experience, and these expectancies partly determine what happens for the subject after hypnosis induction. Posthypnotic suggestions link what has been learned, incorporated, or experienced in hypnosis, to the subject's external reality. 

[Note: This explains how the hypnotist’s suggestions are reinforced or triggered every time the MK subject hears a certain cue implanted during the hypnosis process.] 

Loss of Awareness of Body Boundaries, Loss of Sense of Self as Separate 

Awareness of body boundaries is the basic awareness of self as separate from the world. It is a basis for normal, waking consciousness. This awareness is exaggerated in damaged subjects. In sensory deprivation situations, this background awareness becomes unavailable, normal consciousness disintegrates, and the subject experiences non-unity and merges with other things. 

[Note: I was left alone in the dark, in a dungeon beneath Holsworthy, at a very young age. The sensory deprivation split off a section of my personality which I bonded with my panda teddy bear named ‘Snookie.’ The new personality took the name Snookie.] 

Hypnosis blurs body boundaries so that the subject’s sense of self feels separate from the world. Deep hypnosis achieves a sense of merging the self with the world, becoming ‘one with universe,’ as in meditation. If a subject enters what Walker called the ‘psychedelic depths of trance’ (a two-hour process) the sense of self is lost about halfway along the journey, after pushing through a fear barrier. Walker wrote: 

Sensory deprivation experiments and the scraps of information that leak out about brain washing, support the notion that sense of ego boundaries is disrupted when sensory information about body in relation to environment is disrupted.

[Note: Wendy-Louise Walker and her pedophile comrades subjected me to the very ‘sensory deprivation experiments’ and ‘brain washing’ she referred to.] 

PARTIAL LIFTING OF 

REPRESSION BARRIER 

Wendy-Louise Walker wrote: Repressed traumatic memories are easier to access in hypnosis. Hypnosis partially lifts the executive controls of consciousness, which weakens the repression barrier. This, plus flexible focus of attention in response to therapist suggestion, allows access to, and reprocessing of, trauma memories normally unavailable to consciousness. This can be difficult, and sometimes one must use suggested optional amnesia as a safety mechanism, while the patient slowly comes to terms with the repressed trauma events. 

Sensory deprivation experiments and the scraps of information that leak out about brain washing, support the notion that sense of ego boundaries is disrupted when sensory information about body in relation to environment is disrupted. Hypnosis accesses and reprocesses repressed trauma memories. 

Walker said, ‘Some of my own research or research I have supervised supports the notion that the repression barrier is somewhat weakened in hypnosis, with a significantly greater intrusion of primary process thought in hypnosis than in the waking state with highly hypnotisable subjects.’ 

[Note: To explain, primary process thought is intuitive and unconscious; it lets us react quickly and adaptively to our environments. Secondary process thought is more conscious and analytical. Creativity combines primary and secondary process thinking, to produce tertiary process thought. Walker was in fact talking about combining the left and right hemispheres.] 

Primary process thought is the illogical, timeless thought carried out mostly in sensory imagery rather than in words; it is not grounded in reality and intrudes in dreams. Walker supervised research which found: While primary process thoughts intruded the fantasies of highly hypnotisable subjects more frequently in hypnosis rather than in the waking state, these subjects were more likely to have primary process thoughts intrude their waking fantasies or daydreams compared to less hypnotisable subjects. This suggests that highly hypnotisable people have less effective repression barriers. Gifted subjects prefer dissociation as a maladaptive defence, over repression. 

Ideomotor Phenomena 

This is unconscious movement during hypnosis(e.g., automatic writing). Following the hypnotist's suggestions, the subject can experience a hand feeling light, and lifting without apparent volition; hands can also feel heavy, and parts of the body can feel numb, or hot or cold. Gifted subjects experience ideomotor phenomena as non-voluntary. Ideomotor responses depend on the mechanism of dissociation. 

AWARENESS OF TIME PASSING 

During hypnosis, the subject does not process the cues used to register passage of time. This may result from the suspension of vigilant monitoring, an awareness of external reality. This may be what Ronald Shor called ‘general reality orientation’ - one of the dimensions along which he proposed consciousness changes when one enters hypnosis. 

A short time after return to the waking state, the sensation may feel like water closing over a gap, resulting in continuity of memory from the early stage of induction to the end of the de-hypnotising, with nothing in between. 

[Note: In other words, if you are High IQ, and you undergo hypnosis, you will naturally forget whatever happened during the session. Further, even if you attend hypnosis as a gifted adult, you are still vulnerable to abuse by the hypnotist. This explains why gifted kids were selected as MK-ULTRA subjects and why they forget being subjected to unethical hypnosis by MK perpetrators like Wendy-Louise Walker.] 

HYPNOSIS & MEMORY 

The lowering of anxiety and partial lifting of some important controls of consciousness during hypnosis, enables access to repressed or dissociated memories. ‘Ernest Hilgard For highly gifted subjects, hypnosis so differs from the waking state that, shortly after returning to alert waking, they feel almost like the hypnotic experiences did not happen, or were unreal, and they’re remembered in fragments, like a dream.  suggests that memories of events, registered on the peripheries of attention and stored in dissociated memory stores, may be accessed in hypnosis.’ Hypnosis does not automatically improve memory. After hypnosis, a gifted subject may lack memory of what was experienced in hypnosis. 

Walker’s research suggested, even when gifted subjects are able to recall and describe their experiences in hypnosis when back in the waking state, they tended to have some gaps in recall and to lose some of the detail. It was like trying to remember a dream straight after waking up. It is often easier for a subject to remember what happened in an earlier hypnosis session rather than in the waking state. This is consistent with the view of hypnosis as facilitating dissociation, with some difficulty in accessing memory of hypnotic experience in the waking state. 

[Note: The relevance of this to intelligence gathering and soldier training, where MK handlers can hypnotise an asset subject and access a particular brain fragment (i.e., split personality, alter) that holds the memories of previous hypnosis / programming sessions. For example, a child asset who has been trained to service high officials, gather intelligence, hang at parties, and use eidetic memory to function as a human tape recorder. The handler later accesses the alter and has them play back the recording.] 

HYPNOSIS & CONTROL 

The hypnotist directs the stream of consciousness, directs the focus of attention, and suggests the general content of consciousness. ‘Hypnotists, especially those who are not hypnotisable themselves, often do not realise the responsibility that goes with such trust, nor the sense of vulnerability that accompanies it for the subject.’ 

TRANSFERENCE & HYPNOSIS 

Hypnosis intensifies the therapeutic relationship, including the transference components. This is reflected in content of dream-like fantasies. Walker found this phenomenon occurs with clinical, but not research, subjects. 

[Note: This phenomenon complicates and risks the therapeutic relationship which is discussed in subsequent chapters.] 

LEVELS OF HYPNOSIS 

There exists a deeper state of consciousness than is achieved in clinical hypnosis, which Walker called the ‘psychedelic depths.’ This is reached by slowly and carefully guiding a highly gifted subject further and further into hypnosis. Reaching this level of consciousness requires the subject to push through a fear barrier. This fear barrier involves the total suspension of critical self-awareness (vigilant monitoring and abstract interpreting having probably been suspended earlier in the voyage), loss of all sense of body boundaries and self, with reality becoming totally the ongoing experience of vivid and elaborate imagery. 

Here is a summary of what happens at the different depths of consciousness: 

Stage 1. At very light depths, one can get the relaxation response and some lifting of both self awareness and vigilant monitoring. This is all some people ever achieve and is pleasant and useful. Even here, there is probably increased responsiveness to suggestion, so positive suggestions about motivation to do therapeutic things and increased self-worth can be 468 appropriate. At this depth, the relaxation response can be conditioned to an image, such as falling petals, feathers or snowflakes, or to words such as ‘breathe out and relax.’ 

Stage 2. Some little distance further, critical self-awareness fades to a smaller voice, and there is marked increase in vividness of sensory imagery, subjective reality of imagined experience, the range of ideomotor responses available, and marked augmenting of affective response - most of the sorts of things one wishes to use therapeutically. Already also there is increased likelihood of intrusion of primary process thought, if the instructions to the subject allow a reasonably free rein for thoughts to flow. The subject is likely to take one's words in a very literal way, and there may be noticeable tolerance for logical incongruities. 

Stage 3. Going to what we as therapists call ‘deep’ - though not what I the researcher would call ‘deep’ - the subject is likely to be profoundly relaxed, unless abreacting or pretending to be awake (if instructed to do so). The subject is likely to be literal and compliant in response to our words, to be able to produce the hallucinatory responses he or she is capable of, to show total suggested amnesia, in general, to pass all or almost all the items of the standard tests of hypnotisability. At all these levels, the subject is able to talk with the hypnotist. Heart rate will vary from resting low for that person, to higher if a strong feeling, pleasant or unpleasant, is experienced. [Note: Walker’s words ‘pretending to be awake (if instructed to do so).’ This suggests CIA handlers have discovered a way to disguise the fact that their assets were in a state of hypnosis, so that observers would not detect anything amiss. So, if someone tried to access the asset, the asset could throw them by pretending to be in the waking state.] 

Stage 4: ‘Psychedelic’ 

‘Beyond that is ‘psychedelic’. There is not a great deal in the literature, but it was what was referred to in the old literature as the ‘somnambulistic’ level of trance. Sherman, in his unpublished doctoral dissertation, had a few subjects take themselves to the depths and found a drop-in amplitude of alpha waves in EEG. Even at this depth, hypnosis did not look like sleep. By the time they reach the fear barrier, pulse rate is very slow, and the reported strong fear does not result in increase in heart rate. However, at this time I find the EEG flooded with theta waves.’ 

‘As my subjects go far beyond the usual involvement in hypnosis, they become profoundly relaxed, immobile and cold. They no longer speak. Heart rate drops and breathing becomes slow and shallow. It takes a long time to go to the depths and I give my hypnotic virtuosi a long time to come back. I always maintain contact by holding the wrist in case verbal contact is lost.’ 

One does not use these levels of hypnosis therapeutically; it is unsafe and unnecessary. If a subject accidently goes a long way beyond the depth you meant, bring her slowly and confidently back to a good working depth. 

[Note: Wow! Remember John C. Lilly’s research with altered states of consciousness using a combination of psychedelic drugs, hypnosis, sensory deprivation in salt-filled floatation tank, and simultaneous hook up to an EEG? I was subjected to this very process during my core splitting at the ‘psychedelic level’ of consciousness. This same level was sought in Project Stargate. During all the training phases of all these procedures, my brain wave 469 activity was monitored. Drugs were used to lower the fear response. Theta waves were relevant to reaching the interdimensional level of dissociation I described in earlier chapters.] 

HYPNOSIS ABILITY 

People vary in their responsiveness to hypnosis and, when it is formally measured, hypnotisability is distributed in a large, unselected population, in a more or less normal distribution, more like an ability than a personality trait. About 2/10 of a large population will be very hypnotisable, about 2/10 won’t respond at all, and the rest distributed in the typical bell-shaped normal distribution, from a little bit hypnotisable to quite hypnotisable. 

FOCUS IN DISSOCIATION 

(aka, Double-Tracking) 

Wendy-Louise Walker considered dissociation in the context of child development. Inheritance determines variability in proneness to double track or dissociate. Dissociation is not normal or abnormal, but simply a cognitive style. Those with a marked capacity to dissociate (whose upbringing did not inhibit development of the gift) are highly hypnotisable. Walker wrote: 

We then divided our very-young dissociation-prone into two pathways: (1) those who were abused, or who suffered horrendously in childhood, (2) those who did not suffer undue damage

[Note: Walker gives no reference to the sample of children she refers to here. This sounds like the Holsworthy child victim sample Ben spoke of. Walker included ‘burn victims’ in the sample of very young kids who suffered horrendously in childhood. Does this mean kids were burned at Holsworthy, the way Nazis experimented with burns?] 

THE RELATIVELY UNDAMAGED 

The non-abused dissociation-prone child would naturally develop skills of double tracking (to alleviate boredom) and some splitting of affect and cognition (where appropriate). She would also develop capacity for loss of self in experience (i.e., ‘absorption’) to alleviate boredom and stress (e.g., love of nature, fiction), especially when her childhood lifestyle facilitated this. Such children learned spontaneously to use fantasy not just for fun or escape, but for rehearsing difficult situations. 

We noted that highly hypnotisable people did not have a set particular personality type. 

[Note: Having no set personality type allows for creating multiple new personalities within all MK child recruits. It also says that creating personalities will not affect hypnotisability.] 

When highly hypnotisable subjects presented for therapy (whose hypnotic gifts hadn’t been distorted by child abuse) Walker taught them about the gifts and vulnerabilities of the highly hypnotisable. This is the script she suggested using with clients: 

You have a special kind of gift, being highly hypnotisable, that only about 1 or 2 in 20 people have. It is almost certainly inherited. Since you have doubtless learned that we get nothing for nothing, there is a flip side, a set of vulnerabilities that go with this gift, and it is important to recognise and manage these.

[Note: Victims like me were continually told we were ‘special.’ Use of this word creeps me out and tells me this is grooming and predatory language. I would be concerned that any high IQ adult is vulnerable to being recruited via hypnosis administered by any member of the Australian Hypnosis Society.]

Dissociation-proneness. You have demonstrated in the hypnotisability scale that you can run two tracks of mental processes at once; the gift is great flexibility and interest. For flexibility you pay in error proneness in any complex system. When you are tired, have a hangover or have been stressed, it is easy to feel separated from the rest of the world; or less than a whole person. 

[Note: A hangover caused me to dissociate and experience a vivid visual flashback to serving in Nicaragua.] 

When faced with life-threatening crisis, you are likely to split off from your panic or distress and focus just on calm problem solving, and this is fine as long as you retrieve and work through the feelings a bit later (not leaving them split-off and not accessible to memory as part of your life experience).  

High level of suggestibility both in and out of altered states. This is one of the correlates of high hypnotisability and it means that, even in the waking state, people of this kind are extremely responsive to suggestion both in the sense of compliance (by behaviour or experience) and incorporation of the content of evaluative suggestions into the self-system. This is an open invitation to those in the family and workplace to play the highly hypnotisable with guilt and manipulation. 

[Note: Hence, CIA programmers use guilt and manipulation to control their victim.] 

Recognising this, the subject must learn to be aware of the processes of suggestion and to evaluate which suggestions will be accepted and which rejected. This can cause a quite radical increase in experienced self-esteem! Further, self-talk is a very important medium of change for the highly hypnotisable, since they can respond to their own suggestions (compliance and incorporation into the self-concept) and, aware of this, they learn to recognise when they are producing negative feelings by their negative self-talk. 

[Note: Hence why Gittinger had me write my own script, since the programming is better accepted and will stick if I create the scenario and imagery.] 

Capacity for loss of self in experience, absorption, vivid imagery. This is the area of choice for selecting treatment methods in hypnosis for the highly hypnotisable, as it teaches them flexible and creative ways of living and of producing an harmonious and joyous inner life. This can involve using music as the pathway in, through and out of trance, using other artistic media like poetry if it suits your own style, eliciting and modifying emotional responses, rehearsing coping in difficult situations. I have a comprehensive workshop in imaginative involvement and music which I love teaching. 

Anxiety-proneness and proneness to phobia are associated with high hypnotisability, but on the other hand, such patients have the gifts to learn to manage the vulnerability with great style and flourish. 

[Note: The above description fits the creative, high visual-spatial IQ individual I described in Relevance of Intelligence. High IQ children make the best hypnosis candidates, which is another reason why Gittinger targeted the likes of me.] 

THE ABUSED OR BADLY 

DAMAGED HIGHLY HYPNOTISABLE 

If dissociation-proneness, absorption and suggestibility are hallmarks of those who have inherited high hypnotisability, if these children are severely abused, sexually, physically or psychologically, the gifts of dissociation and absorption are their only coping mechanism. Their gifts develop in highly distorted and pathological ways, with multiple personality disorder and other highly abnormal dissociative disorders like fugue states at the extreme. Less extreme will be disorders of reality perception and self-perception, which may lead to mistaken diagnoses of schizophrenia or borderline personality. 

Alcohol is dangerous when regularly combined with marijuana. However, opiates lessen dissociation proneness for a time, which may be why many formerly abused young people end up addicted to heroin. 

These patients display a great range of symptoms and in therapy they often fear abuse, have a terrible lack of trust, and a terror of loss of control. They are horrendously difficult and complicated to work with but, of course, very rewarding sometimes. 

Re-parenting is often a relevant concept in understanding what is needed in therapy. Teaching the patient eventually to understand and redevelop her hypnotic gifts is part of therapy. 

[Note: Acceptance of the less likeable parts is what I found the most difficult aspect of the integration process. To integrate these splits or parts, I had to break their cycles of pain and feelings that manifested as mood swings or sensory flashbacks. I had to recall, observe, feel, and acknowledge (i.e., actually relive) the abuse experiences committed to create and maintain each part. Then I had to, in my mind, visualise comforting and verbally acknowledging their abuse. Then I had to visualise physically cleaning and dressing the part and move her to a pleasant mental location for her to permanently reside, to replace her previous nightmare place in my mind. For example, and in my mind, I physically bathed young alters in the bath in my early childhood home. Then I sat them on the 1960’s vinyl lounge in my actual childhood home, turned on our old TV, and handed them two spoons and a jar of the Italian choc-hazelnut spread my mother would buy from an inner Sydney delicatessen. Substance abuse distorts and amplifies tendency to dissociate. Alcohol is particularly potent. The central aims of therapy are to achieve unity of personality, with acceptance and re-education of the less likeable parts, control, and a capacity for peace, joy and love.  The amazing thing is, during this reprocessing, I recalled details of our bathroom and lounge that I could not previously remember. This entire process aligns with Walker’s emphasis on the therapist’s reparenting of the child parts.] 

GENERAL COMMENTS ON DISSOCIATION, 

REPRESSION & HYPNOSIS 

That hypnosis partially suspends some important controls of consciousness, allows a great deal of flexibility in hypnotherapy. While hypnosis does not magically enhance memory, it facilitates retrieval of memories unaccessible to awareness, whether they be repressed, stored in somewhat dissociated memory banks, or simply overlaid by the passage of time and difficult to access. 

Trains of thought or very strong feelings can be terminated appropriately in the session, and suggested amnesia can be used as an optional temporary defence to prevent the patient from being overwhelmed with distressing memories until she can cope with them. 

INCREASED COMPLIANCE & SUGGESTION 

WITH HIGHLY HYPNOTISABLE 

The general increase in compliance with suggestion means that subjects usually focus attention as requested, and experience or do what the hypnotist requested of them. Carried through into post-hypnotic suggestion, the therapist can influence motivation in the waking state, sometimes mood for a time; and suggestion, as mentioned earlier, is used to carry what is learned in the dissociated state of hypnosis into behaviour and experience in everyday life. Subjects in hypnosis are also more liable to incorporate statements by the hypnotist into their ego systems, their beliefs and values relating to themselves. The therapist must be careful not to create conflict by making suggestions that are contrary to the patient's central values or personal goals. 

IMAGINATIVE INVOLVEMENT 

Walker said: ‘The increased vividness of sensory imagery in hypnosis, the enhanced subjective involvement in what is imagined, the loss of self in experience… This is my own very favourite area.’ [Note: Walker preferred the main feature of MK programming.] 

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THE GIFTS & VULNERABILITIES 

OF THE HIGHLY HYPNOTIZABLE: 

RELEVANCE FOR THERAPY 

This paper discusses the gifts and vulnerabilities of highly hypnotizable clients. It also explores the relevance for therapy of those in this category and the differences between those who are damaged (e.g., traumatized) and those who are not damaged. 

Highly hypnotizable subjects experience major and complex shifts in consciousness, and they are simply different. This view is supported by the research and writings of the Spiegels, the Hilgards, and Wendy-Louise Walker’s own work and self-observations. 

Gordon Hammer taught: Only those in the far-right tail of the norm distribution are actually hypnotized at all. 

Hypnotisability is more an ability, a cognitive style, rather than a personality trait. There is almost certainly a genetic factor in hypnotisability. The learning and experiences that foster or inhibit development of hypnotisability, are relevant to therapy. Walker wrote:

The role of abuse in childhood is almost certain to exaggerate, or make pathological, the capacity for dissociation and double tracking (c.f., compartmentalization) with which the highly hypnotizable are born

[Note: Walker demonstrated familiarity with the notion that, traumatising high IQ kids induced the dissociation and brain compartmentalisation necessary for creating mind controlled slaves.] 

One study showed that undamaged highly hypnotizable subjects reported using dissociation when very upset as children… 

Walker described the highly hypnotizable as ‘probably stimulus hungry.’ 

For the highly hypnotizable, hypnosis accentuates a process they already practise. Focus of attention is the access key. Hypnotic suggestion is the driving program. Walker wrote:

The highly hypnotizable go in and out of altered states of awareness, and switch hemispheres, quite readily.

They do not need a ‘crisis’ or to have been abused, to shift. The undamaged highly hypnotizable keep themselves to themselves [i.e., introverts]. They may occupy all sorts of jobs but tend to gravitate to the arts. When they are actors, they go for method acting rather than Lawrence Olivier’s carefully constructed performances. 

Looser background controls of consciousness lead to greater flexibility, which leads both to creativity and to increased error. The highly hypnotizable are a group for whom background controls are very readily lifted; indeed, they often spontaneously shift this control. When highly hypnotizable people are damaged, upset or drunk, they can appear strange, but are clearly differentiated from schizophrenics. 

DISSOCIATION PRONENESS 

Dissociation is the double tracking of consciousness. It is not a disease process but something that some (1 to 2 in 20 people) do easily and habitually. 

Double tracking is par for the course for the highly hypnotizable, engaging two competent sets of cognitive processes, with self-awareness and executive awareness flitting back and forth. This hinders total recall, since memory access is easier with material that was in the central focus of conscious attention. Advantage: great flexibility, rarely get bored, can get a lot done. Disadvantage: memory gaps, especially when tired. However:

The second consciousness track can often be accessed by entering other information, especially sensory information.

SPLITTING AFFECT FROM COGNITION There may also be dissociation in the meaning of splitting of affective components of cognition and memory. Highly hypnotizable people use this as a conscious mechanism in an emergency. When it is unconscious and extensive, it is a defence mechanism. Advantage: excellent for crisis, can put terror aside, ride with the demands, carry on ‘as if in a trance’ [Note: An essential DELTA soldier ability]. For the non-damaged highly hypnotizable there is no problem: They need to process the feelings soon after the event, just postpone a little, meet the practicalities first, and then weep. [Note: This is why I was allowed moments to cry and grieve, under the supervision of Patricia Anne Conlon.] For the damaged, this is done automatically, non-volitionally, then it splits off feelings from perceptions and cognitions; if this is in a major way, life becomes unreal, bleak, two-dimensional, and they may be misdiagnosed as schizophrenic! 

There can be a splitting off of whole systems.

Dissociation may also refer to the splitting off of relatively sizeable chunks of consciousness (systems of cognitions, motivations, and patterns of affect) separated by walls of amnesia.

There is major loss of control, with MPD and fugue states as the extreme. The damaged highly hypnotizable tend to use dissociation in a maladaptive way, as a defence, rather than repression. These major maladaptive dissociations may very likely be initiated and fostered in childhood. 

Highly hypnotizable people, even those without damaged personalities, have more of a sense of multiplicity, they have looser controls of consciousness. Multiple personality is the abnormal extreme. An important goal with highly hypnotizable patients, who come for help because they have been damaged, is fostering a sense of flexible unity in the personality, of accepting the different facets. [i.e., Integration.] 

The spontaneous emergence of primary process thought in the waking state is more frequent among the highly hypnotizable, and primary process thought is more frequent in hypnosis compared with the waking state. 

EVERYDAY IMAGINATIVE INVOLVEMENT 

& SPONTANEOUS HYPNOSIS 

Non-damaged highly hypnotizable people report this area with pleasure and commonly produce it on purpose and guard against it when it is likely to seem inappropriate. Damaged patients have less ability to shift consciousness and have a sense of loss of control of consciousness in everyday life, and a fear of this. Walker’s own work on imaginative involvement suggests that it can be a great refuge and a rich and growth-provoking experience. Equally vividly, it can create a sense of doom. For example, if a husband is late home and the thought that he might be dead emerges, the highly hypnotizable can experience trains of imagery and affect which are quite commonly self- propelling. The flexibility and vivid loss of self in imagined experience with access to vivid emotional responses accessible to the highly hypnotizable, are great for problem solving, magical, but need to be kept on leash. 

For the undamaged highly hypnotizable, this is the quality-of-life dimension. They automatically use this for stress management (e.g., get lost in nature, sparrows in rain puddles, off with music). They use it for problems-solving (e.g., rehearsal), for recreation.They read novels and poetry and extend their life experience and spirituality. Sometimes things just ‘pop into their heads’… 

The damaged highly hypnotizable tend to underutilize this dimension as a source of entertainment, wonder and joy. Also, it is their major source of unharnessed, negative and overwhelming suffering. The goal then is to teach them controls and limits. The negative future is created and reacted to, and negative suggestions are amplified imaginatively into complex vistas of creative suffering, with ensuing wear and tear on the body. The greatest gift of being highly hypnotizable becomes shut off, because it can generate such suffering. For therapy: Teach about the area, teach how to use self-direction, self-talk to direct these processes, controlled involvement. 

SUGGESTIBILITY 

Both damaged and undamaged highly hypnotizable people are highly suggestible, both in the sense of compliance with suggestion, and in terms of incorporating suggestion into the self-concept. The undamaged highly hypnotizable learn to protect themselves against undue invasion quite early in childhood. The damaged highly hypnotizable are confused and tortured by this dimension, and continue the suffering with negative self-talk, which acts as suggestion. Teach the damaged highly hypnotizable about their qualities, teach them to have imagined ‘force fields’ around them. Teach them to evaluate suggestions before responding or incorporating. Teach them to use self-talk in a positive and creative way. Education is a powerful modality in therapy and is very necessary for the highly hypnotizable. Teach further limiting and harnessing of their great gifts. 

HYPNOTIST INTERACTION There are differences here according to transference and reality components of the relationship, and according to whether it is taking place in the context of therapy or research. The highly hypnotizable can be very concrete in receiving instructions, but they may not always be compliant. Even in research, with the weakening of executive control in hypnosis, one may find spontaneous regression or abreaction. This occurs infrequently in research because of the contract. Interpersonal relationships are greatly intensified when we use hypnosis in therapy, especially with the highly hypnotizable. The relationship needs to be kept safe, and proper limits set. 

HIGH HYPNOTISABILITY & MEMORY 

Spiegel suggests that the highly hypnotizable have very good memory, but they are probably prone to amnesia gaps. Many of the memory problems of damaged highly hypnotizable patients are probably dissociative rather than repressive.

Gifted subjects are skilful at alternative accessing of memory stores, e.g., by using sensory imagery rather than words to access memory.

[Note: This points to Gittinger’s extensive combining of visualisation and hypnosis to structure multiple personalities. It also helps explain how and why Art Therapy can effectively access MK memories. It also suggests that these memories are technically dissociated – not repressed, and that effective therapy should focus on integration.] 

TREATMENT IMPLICATIONS

Walker emphasised the notion of, first of all, fostering a sense of control and unity at the central core of personality. Use hypnotic techniques in the beginning to foster this sense. Teach the subject what it feels like going in and out of hypnosis, and to defend against trancelike consciousness in inappropriate situations via voluntary barriers. Emphasize in and out of hypnosis, the joys of having a creative and flexible mind, but emphasize also that we get nothing for nothing. Anxiety proneness and the sense of the mind slipping out of gear, are liabilities that accompany the gift. For self-hypnosis, use ritual such as listening to a piece of beautiful music with trance directed by that music, and the direct suggestion with such beautiful music that no negative or discordant experience is possible. With highly hypnotizable clients, it is also very easy to transfer fragments of the hypnotic state into waking habits. 

Highly hypnotizable people are unpredictable to hypnotize; they require sensitivity and attention; and ‘routine’ hypnosis is not suitable. Get constant feedback about what is being experienced and learn to use language appropriately. The damaged, highly hypnotizable person needs structure and clear definition of the hypnotic experience. Their needs are somewhat different from less hypnotizable people, and from my 40-plus years of experience with them, ‘indirect’ methods are often quite noxious to them.

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COMBINING MUSIC & WORDS AS 

A PATHWAY THROUGH HYPNOSIS: PRACTICAL GUIDELINES 

Music has powerful effects on consciousness and, combined with appropriate hypnotic words to guide attention and experience, makes a natural pathway into hypnosis. Music makes an effective deepening technique. Music can also be used as the primary focus of attention for induction. Also, when hypnosis is achieved, music can be an effective vehicle for carrying verbal suggestions, a primary stimulus for production of emotional experiences, or a background for therapeutic fantasy, guided imagery, or imaginal rehearsal. 

Hilgard (1979) noted that her highly hypnotisable subjects were more likely than less hypnotisable ones to become absorbed in classical music rather than pop or jazz. [Note: I was raised with rock music and forced to watch Countdown weekly. While my teenage peers listened to The Cure, Sex Pistols and U2, I preferred Mozart, Handel and Bach.] 

Sensory imagery elicited by ‘imaginative’ music is more vivid and subjectively real in hypnosis than in the waking state. Sensory imagery tends to be highly individual across different subjects. There is more loss of self in the experience of listening to music in hypnosis than in the waking state. [Note: Disney’s Fantasia, which relied on this phenomenon, was used for programming.] 

COMBINING MUSIC & WORDS 

FOR HYPNOSIS INDUCTION 

If hypnotic instruction is combined with the correct consciousness-altering music, the two inputs augment each other. Music as a focus of attention is more attention-holding than watching a spot on the wall. Music reduces intrusive thoughts during moving into hypnosis. Walker used flute, guitar, and lute music of Bach’s Arioso, Boccherini, Vivaldi, Handel and others, and Celtic harp music. Highly hypnotisable subjects prefer music that captures consciousness (e.g., Baroque). Baroque chamber music can make excellent deepening music, a slow rendition of Pachelbel’s Canon, can be powerful as a deepening pathway. Renaissance dance music can also be effective, and the suggestion would be that the mind dance into hypnosis with the music. 

When music is combined with the hypnotist’s verbal suggestions, the highly hypnotisable can’t recall the verbal suggestions after the hypnosis 

[Note: MK-ULTRA programming is characterised by an inability to remember the abuse. The role of music in that process seems obvious, after reading Wendy-Louise Walker’s hypnosis methods.] 

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CONCLUSION 

Reading between the lines as Ben suggested, I found Wendy-Louise Walker’s writings validated my memories. They strike me as clandestine instructions for accessing high-IQ trauma victims. They seem to elucidate things Walker can’t mention in professional journals. Walker’s writings suspiciously lack mainstream research references to support how she acquired much of her knowledge. She provides almost no referencing for how she reached her conclusions, what subjects were used, or the nature of the research from which her conclusions were drawn. Consequently, I’m inclined to believe Ben: Walker’s knowledge of hypnosis was founded on unethical hypnosis, drug experiments, and Nazi-style torture and trauma conducted on little children kept in cages like lab rats beneath Sydney military bases. 

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I had a dream where I stumbled upon a five-year-old girl with long straight dark blonde hair floating face down in a starfish position I a shallow wading pool. It was me. My brain was telling me the age I was when Wendy-Louise Walker drowned and electrocuted me. 

‘That was horrendous,’ I complained. ‘That was the worst session in six years. It left me in shock for days. Jon accidentally startled me the next day and I screamed my head off again. I just don’t want that again. I did a full year of that and it’s just too painful.’ 

‘What was so bad about last week?’ my therapist asked. 

‘Oh, perhaps drowning plus whole-body electrocution in every orifice is incredibly painful!’ 

‘But we’ve processed equally painful experiences before, like drowning and -…’ 

‘Yeah, I know. The Dagon drowning ritual was worse. I don’t know…’ 

‘Can I tell you my take on it?’ 

I nodded. 

‘I reckon there’s more.’ 

‘Shut up! I don’t want to hear that.’ 

‘Well, we could do week-on, week-off, and concentrate on stabilising and calming you in between sessions?’ 

‘That’s just annoying. If we’re gonna do it, I’d rather just rip the bandage off in one go.’ 

‘That’s what I figured.’

‘I don’t have a fucking choice, do I?! I’m between a rock and a hard place. If I don’t do the memory recalling, I suffer all the same emotions and pain attached to the memories anyhow, and this keeps cycling until I diffuse it. So, I recall the trauma, integrate that part – and then it starts all over again with another memory. But at least the remaining stuff isn’t compounded by the recently surfaced stuff.’ 

I phoned my friend who had experienced the same programming and asked her why she thought the previous session was so painful. 

‘Obviously it’s opened up whole new batch of trauma memories.’ 

‘Oh, shut up! That’s exactly what my therapist said!’ 

They were both right. 

The induction began with an image of my floating down to earth on a cloud. 

‘Like Monkey?’ I asked. 

‘Yes, like Monkey.’ 

That’s easy, I thought. Monkey was one of my favourite TV shows as a kid. 

He began counting forwards to ten. ‘What do you notice?’ 

‘White haze. I see a pink lotus flower. Someone is sitting on a cloud, crossed-legged, beneath a rainbow. He’s dressed in a gold-orange-yellowish robe. He’s bald. He’s a swami. He’s wearing wooden beads. Keep counting.’ 

He began counting to 20. 

‘Black,’ I said. Keep counting.’ 

‘…twenty-nine…thirty.’ 

‘Red. I see red. Keeping going.’ 

‘…forty.’ 

Pink. I see a birthday party. People are up close, dressed in party hats. One blows one of those whistles with a paper tongue.’ 

‘…fifty.’ 

‘Green. It’s colour programming.’ 

‘…sixty.’ 

‘Yellow.’ 

‘…seventy.’ 

‘Orange.’ 

‘…eighty.’ ‘

Light blue. It’s a multi-coloured stick of rock candy with segments of different flavours stuck together.’ 

‘…ninety.’ 

‘Light grey. It’s changed. I see a pack of coloured Textas now.’ 

‘…one hundred. What do you see?’ 

I continued counting in my own mind, taking myself deeper, to two hundred. I recalled standing in a vat of liquid, at Lucas Heights nuclear reactor, looking up at White Coats working on perforated metal deck surrounding reactor. I per down and see feet are in water. I am standing on some kind of translucent blue surface which is lit up from beneath. My arms are bound. ‘I’m stuck. I can only see right. You have to guide me so I can turn my head.’ 

‘Look around.’ 

‘I see the exit to a corridor directly ahead. There is a light source behind me. My arms are tied. They’re doing something with, with radioactivity. You know -…’ 

‘Isotopes?’ 

‘Yeah, something like that. I don’t understand.’

At the end of the session, I was left feelings confused because I had not identified the part responsible for these memory fragments. I was still feeling the part’s emotions. So, I did a 20-minute session with Ros, to identify who was holding the memory. I identified ‘Red Alice’ and that her system existed behind a red door at back of the Alice in Wonderland setting located behind Gittinger’s green door. 

I slipped right into Red Alice’s memories and immediately remembered the missing fragments. ‘Red Alice was the part trained in psychology. She was the one who scanned the MMPI data in class and concluded in minutes that the female patient should not work with a male therapist. Red Alice was trained by Wendy-Louise Walker. They trained me to maybe take her place at Holsworthy. That’s why they let me study psychology. They thought I might go back and work for them. And I almost did. I actually started looking at applications for ASIO. I read their requirements and had never seen such a fit for my abilities. It was perfect. And Bond encouraged the ASIO application, saying how ‘perfect’ I would be for that job. They threw me out of psychology the moment they realised I wasn’t going back.’ 

Red Alice’s memory system clearly recalled the order and significance of the memory fragments. ‘Wendy-Louise Walker visited me at Nanna’s house. She did the induction in her kitchen. I was three. She attached the Red Alice alter to my sexual assault beneath the kitchen table. She was there for the assault, instigated and orchestrated it. Kidman was the one seated naked at the table. Wendy-Louise Walker created an induction based on a real stick of multi-coloured rock candy plus a packed of Textas. It all happened there in Nanna’s kitchen. I remembered standing in the kitchen later at age 14, with my back to the sink, thinking about it. 

‘The birthday party was a mock party for my sixth birthday. It happened at Holsworthy, the day after the hunting party by the ocean above Kiama. I was upset about my birthday being ruined, so they put on party hats and teased me about it. Kidman was the man who blew the whistle in my face. 

‘And the incident at Lucas Heights occurred in the reactor room. They were agitating the molecules in my body with electricity, or something like that, to affect the radiation somehow? I don’t exactly know what that was about.’ 

Doing voice dialogue with the parts calmed everything down in just 20 minutes. Ros typically asked: ‘What was your role, job, what did you have to do?’ and add, ‘I’m really sorry you had to do that.’ Ros doesn’t create a whole lot of emotion but tries to keep the alter in her left brain while reminiscing. There is no exact formula for treatment, because the abuse process is too individualised. The process is tailored to the client’s voice tone and body language during therapy. 

The therapist quickly gains the part’s respect and trust when he exhibits genuine care and concern for the person, plus demonstrates knowledge of the part’s system, perpetrators, mind control techniques, and what the alter has generally experienced. 

During my next session, the induction was based on coloured jellybeans, because that was another cue Wendy-Louise Walker used to hypnotise me. Again, I fell down the rabbit hole and landed on Gittinger’s foyer floor. I headed directly for the red door located at the far end of the Wonderland set. 

On the other side of the red door I found myself in a cluttered pantry lit up with a red light, like a photographer’s dark room. I emerged into my grandmother’s Engadine kitchen. It was broad daylight. I walked into the lounge room. There I saw my 21-month-old self, wearing in a long-sleeved white flower girl dress. I stayed with Helena Holowczak while my mother was in hospital with my brother Dale who was born six weeks premature on 26 July 1971.

About the same time, I was back at Nanna’s being measured for a flower girl dress for the wedding of Helen’s Slavic friend. This was the very first time I was left alone with Nanna. I was there at least a week. 

I was seated in a tiny chair with my little white head cocked to one side, leaning on my right hand. I was listening intently to Wendy-Louise Walker who sat opposite me on the lounge. Antony Kidman sat in an armchair to my right. It was Kidman who orally raped me beneath Helen’s kitchen table. That is my first memory of being sexually assaulted – by psychologist Antony Kidman, in the presence and under the instruction of, psychologist Wendy-Louise Walker. 

‘Take the little girl and lead her into the kitchen,’ my therapist suggested. 

‘I can do that,’ I agreed. ‘I can freeze frame the lounge room scene.’ 

‘Yes, because this is inside your mind and you are in control… Sit her at the table. With you… Now, is there anyone else who would like to join you?’ 

‘A whole bunch. Their faces are blurred out. I’m confused.’ A pain struck my heart. ‘They stored Red Alice in my heart. They flatlined me at ten. The heart contains actual brainlike memory. Doctor Chang knew this. It was his specialty…’ 

My head began to throb – a tell-tale sign of electrocution and alter creation. An image returned to mind, the same one I had during the previous session. ‘I remember being tall and leaning with my back to the kitchen sink, staring at the room and remembering back to when I was first abused by these people - in my grandmother’s kitchen. It was her, leaning against the sink. You need to talk to Red Alice.’ 

Therapist: ‘Invite her to sit at the table. I’ll join her there.’ 

I visualised the four of us at the table. ‘Hey, this is weird. I can actually picture us around the table!’ 

There ensued a heated discussion between Red Alice and my therapist, about her difficulty connecting with him. 

‘I’m sorry,’ he eventually conceded. 

I moved into Alice’s mind and began to explain: ‘Wendy-Louise Walker made me. She taught me psychology. I’m the one who rapidly scanned that MMPI in psychology class. They compartmentalised my natural ability and enhanced it by shutting out all distraction and increasing focus and a-…’ 

‘Attention,’ my therapist nodded. 

‘Which is the key to all enhancement. They were training me to take over from Wendy, to become a perpetrator. They had me do the same to other kids.’ 

I drew Red Alice seated at the table, for my therapist to see just how evil she was. 

‘She’s dripping in blood,’ I said. 

‘Hey,’ he cooed, ‘she was just a little kid. It wasn’t her fault… Why don’t you go put your arm around her?’ 

I’m so sorry, I consoled Alice. I led her into the bathroom nearby, ran a bath, and began to bathe her. The bath quickly filled with blood. So, I emptied and refilled the bath, and tried bathing her again, washing her hair. I almost had her clean when she grabbed a blade and slashed her left wrist. 

‘It’s not working! She just slit her wrist. She’s the one who slit my wrist all those years ago.’ I showed my therapist the small scar on my left wrist. ‘She was trying to communicate what happened. It’s not working because she wants me to know what she did. That’s the pattern: I remember what they made the part do, and then she can be washed and safely stored.

Tap-tap-tap… 

I mentally re-entered the small cluttered red-lit room. This time, I emerged into a Delta operation. It was dark and green. I wore night vision goggles. I saw a man seated on a lounge. It was an ambush… an assassination. 

‘She did assassinations. Delta shot entire families. Kids, everyone. We made it look like the father killed his entire family and blamed it on him. What a nightmare…’ Sometimes Delta teams shot the adult members of a family and took their children for trafficking. 

I had seen enough. I bathed Red Alice again, this time in the shower, due to the memory of my step-grandfather sexually abusing us in the bath. Alice broke down crying in the shower, her head flopped forward, and her wet body convulsed so she could hardly stand. I consoled her again and dried her. I turned and was surprised to find a long white linen dress suspended on a clothes hanger. 

Now I had to find a place for her to rest, both her and the toddler. 

‘She’s had enough of this world,’ I explained. ‘She wants out.’ 

I know where I can put you. You don’t have to be here anymore. 

I visualized a portal to the garden I saw during my childhood near death experiences, where the children were dressed in white linen. 

I led Alice and my toddler self to the portal and said: 

Go and wait for me there. I’ll join you later, when I’m done here...

 Integrating Red Alice was significant because suddenly, the evil perpetrated against me during my psychology studies at Bond University lost its rawness and faded into an old, distant, vague memory. Further, I suddenly lost my superior ability to create words with Scrabble letters. I was becoming like the Pink Floyd song: ‘comfortably numb...’

The next therapy session began with a memory of a mobile made of phthalo blue green coloured mica teardrops that hung at Wendy-Louise Walker’s home. I was seated in a chair beneath an awning at the rear of her home, focussing my attention on the mobile. 

Next, I revisited the house we ambushed at night. Again, I entered via the small room cluttered with pots and pans and emerged in the lounge room. Again, I saw the green hue suggesting we wore night vision goggles. Again, I saw a chubby aging man seated on the couch. I put a bullet in the man’s head and indicated to my three accomplices to search the three doorways to our right. I headed toward the dark opening to the kitchen ahead. I saw a flash of a small girl reclining on the old man but wondered if I were imagining things. I entered the kitchen and noticed a small pantry across the room. Inside the pantry I saw a small figure crouched in the corner. ‘It’s just a doll,’ I told my therapist. 

‘Oh, that’s okay,’ he sighed. 

‘No,’ I explained, ‘I see a doll because it’s okay to shoot a doll.’ 

Tap…tap…tap… 

‘I see flashes of blue, green and yellow doors.’ I sighed, ‘Of course. We did the red door. These are Wendy’s other doors.’ 

Therapist: ‘Let’s open them up and see what’s inside.’ 

Behind the yellow door I saw a Holsworthy science lab. ‘I see a lab bench like we had in science at school, only there’s a sink in it.’ The picture cleared and I saw the torso of a young blonde boy lying on a metal table. ‘It’s a wet lab. This is where they did autopsies on the kids in cages. They cut them open to see the effects of their experiments. Lots of kids. An endless supply…’ 

Behind the blue door I saw my teenage self, standing in front of a chalk board, delivering lessons on strategy to a group of six-year-old children seated cross-legged on the floor. Wendy-Louise Walker and her friends sat observing from the back of the room, impressed with my teaching style. 

Behind the green door I saw a classroom with rows of desks facing a board. My teenage self was sat at a desk, being taught the military application of psychological test after test after test… ‘This is what clinicians use these tests,’ said my instructor, ‘but this is what the test was actually designed for…’ 

Therapist: ‘Is there a white door?’ 

‘There’s always a white door,’ I lamented. 

Behind the white door was thick fog that cleared to reveal the fat Tibetan monk meditating beneath the rainbow. Then I noticed an endless hallway lined both sides with every coloured door, like a mega pack of Texta felt pens… 

‘Wendy created so many doors when I was young, so that whenever she needed to lay some new programming throughout my development, she just had to pick one of the ready-made coloured doors. 

Therapist: ‘Doors within doors…’ 

Our next session focussed on accessing the myriad of multicoloured doors that lay behind Wendy-Louise Walker’s white door of hypnosis. My mind fell on the mica mobile at Walker’s house. Then I recalled her making me focus on a shiny Christmas decoration hanging from the doorway lintel separating the kitchen and lounge room of my grandmother’s Engadine home. 

I had to recall an irritated Red Alice from her hiatus to help me access the doors. 

‘I need the trigger word.’  

It was ‘Black Widow.’ I opened a green door to my left and found a giant spider’s lair based on the demon in Lord of the Rings. Behind that I found a memories of luring targets with sex and assassinating them. 

Next was a pink door. Behind this I saw a bunch of pink helium balloons. Then I saw lemon tea cake and women gathered for a baby shower in a mafia drug lord’s mountaintop mansion. 

Behind a yellow door I saw a white civilian looking CIA plane. In the next snippet I saw me being accompanied by a Delta operative through a Havanan marketplace. 

Behind a red door I saw terracotta brick paving in Tuscany… 

The rainbow of doors represented Delta assignments and tactical programs laid by Wendy-Louise Walker at Holsworthy Army Base.

Psychology 101 

You can be a psychologist like a rock star and have fame and money - and that's what I intend to do. 

- Martin Seligman, 

CIA psychologist 

The white uniformed figures shifted in and out of focus as they rushed about my limp form, sticking things onto my chest, and inserting things into my arms. 

‘Do you wish you were dead now?!’ someone yelled at me. 

‘Nooo…’ I moaned. 

‘Have you ever harmed yourself before?’ 

‘No.’ Two weeks prior, I was a typical college student with no medical history, when I suddenly began suffering vertigo and insomnia. I was walking sideways into walls and had not slept for a fortnight. My GP found no apparent cause for the vertigo, and he prescribed sleeping pills – which I took all at once. 

‘What happened last night?’ a doctor asked me the following morning. 

My brother’s fiancé, who was also my best friend and roommate, arrived home late last night. I had taken a sleeping pill long before Rosalind awoke me, giggling about suddenly ending her engagement to my brother and marrying Glen instead. 

Glen?! I was confused. She’s ditching her Tom Cruise lookalike high school sweetheart to marry some scumbag we just met at church?! I wondered what it was about his coke bottle glasses and 70’s porn star moustache that she found so attractive. Only weeks ago, this Glen had gushed, ‘I don’t know who I love more, Fiona or Rosalind.’ 

Rosalind’s revelation proved too much after recent events. Two weeks prior, my step grandfather was found hanged to death in his chicken coop. 

I did not feel my body as I floated to the kitchen, fetched the medicine bottle, unscrewed the lid, and downed its entire contents. I did not feel the pills touch my throat. I did not wonder whether it might be dangerous. All I remember thinking is, Now I’ll get to sleep. I was found unconscious the following morning. 

‘Have you ever seen a psychiatrist before?’ a young psychiatric registrar asked. He would go on to fail his final psychiatric exam six times. I now wonder why he was rejected by the medical fraternity. Was he that talentless compared to the other morons I encountered in the industry? Or perhaps his rejection was punishment for encouraging me to remember. 

‘Yes,’ I answered. 

‘Who?’ 

‘Ian Cole.’ 

‘When was that?’ 

‘I was sixteen.’ 

‘Until when?’ 

‘Until I left school at eighteen.’ 

‘Who referred you to him?’ 

‘No one. I was friends with his daughter, and we were talking on the phone.’ 

‘Are you depressed again?’ Zoe had asked. 

I was 16. Wasn’t everyone depressed at 16? I had always suffered a kind of existential depression which exacerbated as my home life deteriorated. What’s the meaning of life? I  clearly recall despairing at age five years. What’s the difference between dying when you are 80 and dying at eight, when you are going to die anyhow? 

‘Here’s Dad!’ Zoe passed the call to Dr Ian Cole. 

That is how I ended up in psychotherapy two school lunchtimes per week without my parents’ knowledge or a doctor’s referral. It was an unconventional therapeutic relationship in other ways. Sometimes I attended the mega parties Ian Cole hosted at his Upper Burringbar property, where the smoke of incense and marijuana entwined as adults and minors lounged on Japanese inspired décor, sharing bongs. The revels were an extension of the ‘60s counterculture, where budding artist Ian Cole partied with Sydney’s avant-garde scene in which parents got drunk and high, leaving a generation of kids to be preyed on by the likes of Dave. 

Dave climbed into a bed at Ian Cole’s house where Zoe’s 14-year-old friend Sharon lay asleep. Sharon awoke to Dave sexually assaulting her. Ian put Sharon’s subsequent trauma response down to a lack of ‘open-mindedness.’ 

‘Open-minded’ is how Zoe described her model boyfriend Craig’s attitude toward being drugged and raped at a gathering of teachers including his uncle, the principal who covered up the Education Department pedophile ring I eventually exposed. The morning after the party, Craig awoke in the bed of our gay Murwillumbah high school Careers teacher with no memory of how he got there. Terry Cleal stood naked in the bedroom doorway, mincing at Craig, ‘It’s okay, sweetie.’ 

Zoe had sex with Craig when she was 13 years old. Ian Cole’s reaction to this was warning her daughter, ‘Hey, don’t get pregnant.’ Ian’s youngest daughter Jessie had sex with her boyfriend Gabe very young also. The Cole’s were a living example of Margaret Mead’s sexual revolution. Ian divorced Zoe’s mother Kerry when Zoe was three, after he was caught screwing a nurse named Jan at the psychiatric hospital he worked at. His high school sweetheart, Kerry, attempted suicide after discovering the reason for Ian’s regular overnight stays at work. 

Ian Cole discarded his family like a fast food container and started a new one with the nurse. Zoe felt displaced by this, especially after her mother remarried and had a son to a domestic violence perpetrator. Suddenly Zoe and her older sister Billie belonged to no family. People dismiss the impact of divorce on the displaced children of the first marriage and its contribution to youth suicide. ‘I love all my children equally!’ Ian protested following Zoe’s death. Zoe felt differently. 

Zoe moved in with Ian’s new family at the start of high school. Her arrival shoved a bomb beneath Ian’s slice of hippie paradise. I was the only one who realised this was no Brady Bunch moment. I was the only one who detected the mental pain Zoe was in. I was the only person Zoe warned that she was contemplating suicide. 

Zoe’s older sister, Billie, joined Ian’s family a few years later and graduated from my high school. Billie presented as a cold character who preferred the Japanese culture she eventually adopted. I never understood Billie until I had a daughter just like her. Zoe felt inferior to Billie who was voted school captain, dux of her grade, came second in the state for Japanese translation, and won the regional debating final. Zoe’s lousy high school certificate marks seemed to be the final straw. She left for Germany where she lamented to her friend Emma, ‘I can never go home until I’m famous.’ I know because I visited Emma in Hamburg after Zoe’s death. 

Zoe was living in Sydney when I received her final letter. It contained one standout sentence scrawled in alien handwriting: ‘Sometimes I feel like committing suicide…’ I tried to 486 show the letter to its intended reader - her father - but he rejected my concerns. ‘No, no!’ Ian threw his hands up in protest, ‘What goes on between you and Zoe is your business.’ He refused to read the letter. 

Zoe’s subsequent suicide in Amsterdam instigated a wave of mourning that extended from Murwillumbah to Byron Bay. How could someone so pretty, talented, popular and strong kill herself, they wondered. Everyone was shocked - except me. 

‘There were no signs!’ her father exclaimed. 

Yes, there were. Zoe had been dropping hints for years. She began cutting her wrist while living in Sydney with Ian’s friends. ‘She’s just attention-seeking,’ the psychiatrist couple concluded. 

I met Zoe’s mother in a Sydney restaurant. 

‘Billie had warned me about meeting up with you,’ Kerry confessed halfway through lunch. 

‘Really. What did she say?’ 

‘She said you were very intense.’ 

Well,’ I sighed indignantly, ‘suicide is pretty intense.’ 

‘Suicide is a one-way street. When I saw Zoe, she was lying on a metal table. She looked like a frozen lump of meat. The only thing that seemed natural was her hair, so I stroked that. That wasn’t Zoe lying there. Zoe was somewhere else -…’ 

As Kerry spoke, my brain turned her description of my dead friend into a movie which was stored in long-term memory as if I had been standing in that morgue. The mental image never faded but functioned as a suicide deterrent. 

‘You know,’ she continued ‘it’s amazing. I had a guy, sitting exactly where you are, last week try and convince me that I should use cocaine.’ 

I eyeballed Kerry and asserted, ‘Don’t listen to him. He was lying. Cocaine won’t fix this.’ Cocaine was the recreational drug of the moment, hailed for being non-addictive. I knew otherwise. 

Kerry continued, ‘I couldn’t get an autopsy done on Zoe because they don’t do that on suicides in Holland. But I suspect Zoe was pregnant to some guy called Dave. She kept going on and on about some guy called Dave. Who the fuck is Dave?’ 

My gut dropped. ‘Ian has a friend called Dave. It’s not him, is it? He’s old enough to be Zoe’s father.’ 

Kerry showed me a picture of Zoe in Greece - with Dave. 

‘That’s him! Ugh! He’s a Vietnam Veteran. He was a patient of Ian’s. He doesn’t work. He hangs around Ian a lot. He’s on some huge veteran pension. He convinced the government psychiatrist to grant him the highest pension rate by picking up the psychiatrist’s desk and throwing it through the window. I met him at Ian’s parties. My friend spied him talking to Billie in town, constantly perving down her top. He’s a sleaze.’ 

Dave was present during my final visit to Ian Cole’s Upper Burringbar home. I sat at the kitchen table until midnight, watching the men get drunk and reminisce about Zoe. Toward the end of my visit, Ian confessed he had recently battled the compulsion to chop his family up with a carving knife. ‘I had to throw the knife up the back paddock,’ he explained. Then he smiled knowingly at me, ‘Do you want to see Zoe?!’ 

‘Okay,’ I shrugged, wondering what was about to happen. 

Minutes later, my former psychiatrist returned with a wooden urn containing Zoe’s ashes. He fetched a dessert spoon from the kitchen draw, opened the urn lid, scooped out a spoonful of Zoe’s ashes – and ate them.

‘The intent being,’ Dave commentated, ‘to return Zoe from whence she came.’ Ian abruptly closed the urn, gathered it under his arm, and rushed outside. I followed behind and watched him unceremoniously scatter my friend’s ashes amongst the ginger plants next to the kitchen widow. 

‘I’m sane!’ I yelled at God on my drive home that night. ‘I’m sane! That was insane!’ 

I appealed to my current psychiatrist for help with Ian Cole’s madness. Yet again, my concerns went unheeded. I was not surprised when Ian Cole committed suicide at his Upper Burringbar property two years later. Ian died of guilt. He paid a hefty price for ‘free sex.’ 

A former close friend of Zoe’s contacted me after reading the above story on my blog site. She and Zoe were best friends at an ACT primary school but lost contact after age 10. The friend unexpectedly encountered Zoe four years later at a Murwillumbah eisteddfod. Zoe did not greet her former best friend as expected. Instead, Zoe blurted something about being made to perform oral sex on an adult male - and walked off. 

Some found my account of Ian eating Zoe’s ashes far-fetched. Yet, Jessica Cole, the daughter Ian had with the nurse, subsequently published her memoir, Staying, which describes her father’s decent into insanity following Zoe’s suicide, including the time he was arrested for breaking into a stranger’s house, smearing himself in excrement, and writing all over the walls. 

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USELESS PHYSICIANS 

I have dealt with hundreds of counsellors, psychologists and psychiatrists as both a recipient and provider of mental health services. I have spoken to countless victims of ritual abuse and mind control. I have liaised with and advised therapists who work with victims. I experienced the criminal workings of the organisations that regulate and control the Australian mental health industry, and I have met other victims of these governing bodies. Based upon this wealth of experience, I must conclude that the Australian mental health industry is a putrid mess of dysfunction and corruption. 

The experts in charge of the mental health industry responsible for determining who can practise what, are proven perpetrators. The therapists under their auspices are mostly complicit, lazy, incompetent, or nuts. Most therapists present to patients as condescending, unskilled, unempathetic, unethical, fearful, and generally useless. Most therapists are angry control freaks, of average intelligence, criminally insane, or sexual perverts. Most therapists lack the ethics, professionalism, and skill needed to support a client in general, never mind a victim of the most extreme abuse. Suitable therapists are rare. It took me 35 years to locate a clean, trauma-focussed, EMDR-trained, genuine Christian psychiatrist with expertise in treating ritual abuse and mind control. 

I will now discuss the main reasons why victims of ritual abuse and mind control typically find it impossible to locate a suitable therapist who uses effective trauma and dissociation treatment methods. Australian therapists lack the ethics, knowledge and skills to effectively treat victims of extreme abuse, due to the following factors: 

1. Australian universities have long been infiltrated by perpetrators of pedophilia and MK-ULTRA (as I demonstrated with Bond University); 

2. Psychology theory and practice are based on MK-ULTRA experimentation;  

3. Treatment interventions were designed to perpetuate and maintain trauma and dissociation; and 

4. The CIA introduced denial theories which underpin all teaching, training, clinical and forensic practice in Australia. 

MIND CONTROL ROOTS OF PSYCHOLOGY 

The pioneers of psychology and psychiatry engaged in practises that were dubious, abhorrent, or just plain weird. Carl Jung based his writings on Alchemy and the ancient mystery cults, particularly Mithraism, and founded his own religious cult, the tenets of which are found in the New Age movement and the modern Kundalini-spirit-filled charismatic churches.  

Sigmund Freud intentionally hid his clinical finding that his patients’ ‘hysteria’ stemmed from dissociated memories of child sexual abuse: 

The event of which the subject has retained an unconscious memory is an unusually early experience of sexual relations with actual excitement of the genitals, resulting from sexual abuse committed by another person; and the period of life at which this fatal event takes place is earliest youth – the years up to the age of eight or 10, before the child has reached sexual maturity. A passive sexual experience before puberty: this then is the specific cause of hysteria… In some 18 cases of hysteria I have been able to discover this connection in every single case and, where the circumstances allowed, to confirm it by therapeutic success. 

Freud replaced his finding with the Oedipus Complex theory that children fantasise about have sex with their parents. Thanks to Freud, VIP pedophiles like his own grandson dismiss child abuse memories as ‘false memories’ and child abuse victims as ‘fantasists.’ All modern psychology is mind control. Those Psychology 101 lectures we attended in college were a basic introduction to a military monster hidden in plain sight. Investigative journalist Hank Albarelli documented the CIA’s employment of psychiatrists and psychologists to conduct their mind control experiments during the 1950s to ‘70s. He concluded: 

Virtually anyone that was anybody in terms of psychology or psychiatry in the United States… virtually every doctor in the ‘50s and ‘60s, was on the CIA payroll. 

Carl Rogers, father of humanistic psychology, documented his CIA recruitment in a 1956 memo to the University of Chicago’s chancellor: 

Dr Harold Wolff of Cornell Medical School is one of the world’s leading authorities in psychosomatic medicine… A week ago, he asked me if I would serve with him as a consultant to the Department of Defence on a top-secret matter having to do with mental health. He said, ‘I am asking the five top-ranking men in the country in this field to serve on this task. You are one of the five, and I hope you will serve. 

Harold Wolff was a world-famous neurologist appointed by the CIA Director to investigate Soviet brainwashing methods. He and fellow researcher Hinkie were the first to identify that the ‘Soviet technique rested on the cumulative weight of intense psychological pressure and human weakness.’ 

Carl Rogers built on Ivan Pavlov’s research in which the Soviet paired a bell with electrocution to trigger fear in dogs at the sound of the bell. In 1959, the Human Ecology Fund financed Rogers to conduct MK-ULTRA research which examined the ‘Correlation of Psychological and Physiological Variables in Personality and Personality Change.’ Roger’s study involved attaching electrodes to patients to ‘ascertain their inner state of mind’ and contributed to MK-ULTRA Subproject 97 which examined: 

Process of personality change during psychotherapy. Focus upon schizophrenics, with Control [group] composed of normal individuals. To provide certain techniques of influencing human behaviour that might have significance to the Agency. 

B.F. Skinner, known as the father of operant conditioning, studied human responses to environmental cues. Two corollaries of his operant conditioning were aversion therapy and desensitization. Aversion therapy uses traumatic reinforcement like electric shock to reduce an unwanted behaviour. Skinner was a consultant to Ole Ivar Lovaas, who was hired by Major Louis Jolyon West to conduct MK-ULTRA experiments at UCLA. Documented in mainstream newspapers and magazines, including Psychology Today,  these experiments involved behavioural conditioning of autistic children using cattle prods, physical violence, and electrocution via a metal floor.[grrrrrr.dc] 

John B. Watson, father of behaviourism, produced an animal phobia in the famous baby named Albert who consequently suffered permanent mental health issues in adulthood. Watson boasted: ‘Give me the baby… I’ll make it a thief, a gunman or a dope fiend. The possibilities of shaping in any direction are almost endless. Even gross differences in anatomical structure limits are far less than you may think… Men are built, not born.’ 

Carl Rogers, Rollo May, Aaron Beck, and Albert Ellis attended a 1985 precursor to the annual Evolution of Psychotherapy conferences organised by Jeffrey Zeig. A woman involved in a conference held in Anaheim in the early 1980s, told me the group hired out Disneyland for two nights. Their rationale for spending two evenings at the MK-ULTRA facility was to ‘get in touch with their inner child.’ 

Freud, Jung, Skinner, Rogers, Watson, May, Beck, Ellis – their opinions and research underpin all psychology training. 

NAZI ‘THERAPIES’ 

The Nazis murdered at least 300,000 psychiatric patients. Paperclip resettled an estimated 5,000 Nazis, including prominent psychiatrists and behaviour modification experts, in the USA post WWII, with others immigrating later.480 At least 137 Nazi scientists are known to have been resettled in Australia under Matchbox. These Nazis trained the MK-ULTRA perpetrators who fathered modern psychiatry and psychology and influenced the post-WWII transition from Freud’s philosophical approach to physical interventions: anticonvulsants, antidepressants, deep-sleep therapy, drug abreaction sessions, electroshock, endocrine supplements, insulin shock, lobotomy, narco-hypnosis, and stimulants. These ‘therapeutic’ interventions are intended to induce and maintain trauma and dissociation and prevent integration. Treatment methods are inappropriate and ineffective if they: 

- Were used to cause the victim’s trauma and dissociation in the first place. 

- Perpetuate and maintain trauma and dissociation. 

- Do not connect with the right hemisphere and implicit memory. 

- Deny the existence and nature of the abuse. 

- Do not retrieve and fully process the trauma memories. 

DENIAL-BASED TECHNIQUES 

Psychotherapy is based on Freud’s denial of child abuse peppered with Jung’s occultism. Talk therapy on its own is useless, because talking is a left-brain activity. Trauma memories are stored in the right hemisphere’s implicit memory system and can’t be accessed by verbal interactions based on left-brain cognitive or logical processes. Hence a victim can work hard at therapy for 20 years but make zero progress. 

Behaviour Therapies include Positive Psychology, CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy), ACT (Acceptance Commitment Therapy), DBT (Dialectic Behavioural Therapy), and Schema-Focussed Therapy. Behaviour therapies are ineffective and cruel because behaviour is a symptom of the underlying problem, not the problem itself. Based on CIA-funded torture experiments on children, these methods were designed to stop therapists and victims processing ritual abuse and mind control. Behavioural therapies contain a two-prong attack on recovering repressed memories: 

1. Passivity: The basic premise of these techniques is for victims to loosely acknowledge they were abused but do nothing to explore the abuse experiences trapped in implicit memory. My Counselling Psychology lecturer taught us to, ‘Just let the memories sit there. Let them be.’ In other words, surrender, remain in the passive state of acceptance and learned helplessness that Seligman pioneered, because there is nothing we can do. 

2. False Action: These therapies simultaneously misdirect victims’ energies toward identifying and changing specific thoughts and behaviours. For example, thought loops implicitly created via conditioning are combated by thinking of a red Stop sign at every intrusive thought. Happiness is the therapeutic goal, and positive thinking and mental distraction are the keys to success. Positive thinking excludes focussing on negative topics like witnessing kids being butchered. Instead, if you force a smile, your brain will be tricked into following and you will eventually genuinely feel happier. Willpower is no match for sophisticated brainwashing techniques. It is like defending yourself against a warship with a popgun. These methods impose a mental discipline which the victim can’t satisfy. When they surely fail, victims are blamed for exerting insufficient willpower. 

Positive Psychology correlates with Positive Illusion - inaccuracy regarding reality 

Antony Kidman, who introduced CBT to Australia, explained the application of CBT ‘for people suffering from psychosis’ in a 2014 ABC Radio interview:

NORMAN SWAN: So, what do you do? Do you confront somebody, say, if you're starting to believe that the world is against you and people are talking about you?... 

ANTONY KIDMAN: Well, we do, but of course we don't challenge necessarily the fact that they say, 'People are trying to kill me,’ or 'There's people from the CIA or ASIO across the road in a car sending me messages'. The therapeutic approach is to say, well, 'What does that really mean?’ or ‘Just elaborate on how you feel about that?’ without saying 'That's a load of nonsense!' - but not accepting it either. 

Here is my retort to that interview. How should we ‘feel’ about the following? 

- Kidman died four months after giving the above radio interview, as a direct consequence of my reporting his CIA abuse of me to the NSW Health Board. 

- The NSW health board previously received similar complaints concerning Kidman. 

- I have since heard from multiple Antony Kidman mind control victims or their therapists. 

- I took photos of the head ASIO who stalked me at Marrickville, posted one on social media, and submitted a full body closeup shot to the police who took statements from the two credible witnesses to the incident, plus from two of the ASIO agents who panicked at being exposed. 

Kidman’s notion of focussing on the victim’s feelings and what their memories mean for them - while denying the truth of the CIA-ASIO child trafficking victim’s experiences - is the same denial approach contained in APS Guidelines on Repressed Memories (written by MK-ULTRA psychologists): 

• Psychologists should seek to meet the needs of clients who report memories of abuse and should do this quite apart from the truth or falsity of those reports. 

• Psychologists should explore with the client the meaning and implications of the memory for the client, rather than focus solely on the content of the reported memory. 

2020 Update 

This year 30 senior Australian psychologists underwent training to become supervisors of trainee psychologists. The consensus between all 30 psychologists was that CBT has zero efficacy and simply does not work. Consequently, those 30 supervisors will not be spreading CBT to the next generation of therapists. 

DISSOCIATIVE-BASED 

THERAPY TECHNIQUES 

The following therapies stem from the mystery religions and incorporate methods which CIA perpetrators use to dissociate victims: 

Visualisation activates the right hemisphere and is used to facilitate dissociation for hypnosis, astral travel, and interdimensional access. 

Chanting (Om) creates a resonance which causes the brain hemispheres to synchronise their frequencies with the frequency exerted by our physical surroundings. It is used to facilitate interdimensional access. 

Transcendental Meditation is a dissociative tool is used by Asian cultures (Yogis, Tibetan monks, Ninjas, Shaolin Masters) and to tap into an esoteric power source, mute physical pain, lower heart rate and breathing for survival purposes, and summon Chi (electromagnetic energy) to increase physical strength, harness and weaponize psychic ability, levitate physically, move objects using the mind, and access other dimensions. MKULTRA victims were abused using the same esoteric practises. 

Yoga in the 1970s consisted of healthy exercises that stimulated the vagus nerve, internally massaged the body, and exercised the eyes to improve visual processing. Modern yoga practises focus on mediation, chanting Om, awakening the chakras, and evoking Kundalini. 

Mindfulness is both a denial and dissociative approach stemming from Taoist and Buddhist religions. Mindfulness incorporates dissociative techniques: transcendental meditation, visualisation, and astral projection. These practices repeat the victim’s abuse experiences, promote dissociation, reinforce programming, and inhibit integration. The basic premise of Mindfulness is to live more in the moment and spend less time contemplating past stressors or worrying about future problems. Mindfulness encourages victims to change their perception of reality or themselves, which makes it another denial therapy. Mindfulness based cognitive therapy (MBCT) combines mindfulness with CBT, thereby delivering a double dose of denial. Not surprisingly, UK and USA studies found meditation and mindfulness trigger panic, confusion, mania, depression, psychosis, and hallucinations.

Psychedelic Drugs open the veil that separates this dimension from other dimensions. The MK-ULTRA perpetrators I studied, used LSD to create the initial brain splits in MK-ULTRA victims, and for layering in subsequent programming. LSD and other hallucinogens return victims to the state of consciousness they were in when being tortured and programmed; they trigger and flood victims with trauma memories, preventing them from grounding, and placing them at risk of getting stuck in a flashback. Drugs also open victims up to spiritual problems. Any doctor who suggests using LSD as a treatment method for traumatised and dissociative clients is either dumb - or dirty. 

Somatic Therapy is a grey area. Somatic therapy combines psychotherapy with physical activities, some of which are fine. When somatic activities involve meditation, yoga and theatre, that is unsuitable.  

Theatre (i.e., acting methods) employs shamanic practices of centering, meditation, visualisation, dissociation and channelling. Like John bell and Frater 6161 said, theatre is ritual. As in ritual, theatre summons entities into this dimension. As in ritual, actors invoke entities to possess them, so they can perform. 

FRONTAL LOBE DESTRUCTION 

Lobotomy, electrocution, and psychiatric drugs all disengage the frontal lobes by physically severing this area from the rest of the brain. ECT damages the dorsolateral prefrontal cortical region, the same area targeted in surgical lobotomy. ECT electrodes are placed over the frontal lobes and the most intensive electrical surge fries the memory centres in the tip of the temporal lobes. That is why CIA perpetrators used lobotomy, electrocution and psychiatric drugs to split the brain and repress memories. 

Electrocution. 

Victims are subjected to copious amounts of electrocution in the form of cattle prodding, crash cart paddles, giant electrodes, electric chairs, and ECT. In adulthood, I had flashbacks of being electrocuted in different brain areas, depending on which ones they wanted to separate from the rest of the brain. They also precisely administered electrocution to specific brain regions via a needle inserted into my scalp. John C. Lilly pioneered the method for inserting electrodes into the brain to stimulate exact centres of anger, anxiety, fear, pain and pleasure. Lilly mapped the entire brain for this purpose. 

As a result of electrocution, victims may suffer a lifetime of symptoms including heart attacks, strokes, nervous system damage, and memory loss. These conditions may occur in a victim’s youth or degenerate with age. I suffered a heart attack at age 37, a stroke at 39, and now experience tingling, numbness and pain in my hands and limbs consistent with nervous system damage caused by electrocution. 

ECT has zero therapeutic benefits for victims. Doctors claim ECT temporarily reduces anxiety, depression, and suicidal ideation, when these feelings are in fact symptoms that typically precede a trauma memory as it edges toward conscious recall. ECT stops the trauma memories surfacing. Like drugs, ECT is used to silence patients and so make the psychiatric staff feel more comfortable. The anaesthetic does not reduce the trauma felt during ECT. It simply buries the pain back beneath an amnesia wall. The anaesthetic increases the brain damage ECT causes. 

Hospitals all over Australia still illegally administer excessive bouts of ECT without patient consent, including my local Tweed Heads District Hospital. A movement to outlaw ECT is backed by sound research has been blocked by pedophiles in power. 

Drugs 

During my 30-year recovery attempt, I was rarely prescribed drugs. The longest I ever took medication for was for three to six weeks. I have a hypersensitive nervous system which, I suspect, stems in part from the amount and variety of drugs that my perpetrators pumped into my system from a very young age. My sensitivity precludes me from taking most drugs, and I can only handle small doses. 

A retired pharmacist gave me some advice: ‘Never take the newer drugs. You’d be lucky if a new drug has been tested on 10,000 subjects, making you a human guinea pig. Stick to the old and tried drugs.’ For example, the drug Cymbalta is making abuse victims suicidal, and withdrawal from it induces such bad side effects (such as heart problems) that people 494 can’t withdraw from it. Some of the newer antidepressants have reportedly caused hallucinogenic type reactions. 

Valium can be effective for immediate relief from fresh trauma and flashbacks but is too addictive for long-term usage. The older style beta-blockers (like Inderal) are seemingly effective for PTSD. For example, processing memories can trigger an adverse heart response. Beta-blockers may provide relief from the heart’s constant reaction to the stress of reliving traumatic memories during therapy and providing witness testimony to police and courts. While certain research studies suggest the beta-blockers are effective for trauma memory restructuring, I wonder whether their mechanism of action interferes with brain integration. One psychiatrist prescribed me an asthma medication to take when I anticipate being triggered or have just been triggered. This is effective for about two days, after which its effects reverse to cause anxiety and asthma. 

NEUROFEEDBACK 

Soviet neuroscientist Yuri Kropotov (who discovered the function of the basal ganglia) visited the Tweed Shire in 2015. During this he publicly stated, ‘Psychiatry has failed’ and that neurofeedback is the modern means of combating mental health disorders – that plus the lobotomies his Pavlovian brain institute regularly perform in St Petersburg. 

I participated in Kropotov’s neurofeedback study in which data taken from thousands of Australian trauma victims was sent to the Pavlovian institute in Russia. The neurofeedback training programs used in the study, also designed by Russians, featured triggers including Egyptian occult symbols and walls of dripping blood. 

My Russian relative (a victim of Soviet mind control) threw a fit when I joined the study. ‘You’ve been Total Recalled!’ she screamed at me. ‘They’re reprogramming you! You wouldn’t know what they’re doing to you! They can create a back door! They’re interested in you! You’re a fucking CIA asset! And now your entire brain has been downloaded and sent to the Russian equivalent of the CIA! Whatever happened to sovereign borders?! They’re sending sensitive information about how Australians respond to trauma - to Russia! They’re committing treason!’ 

Indeed, the alpha-theta biofeedback training induced a hypnotic trance state during which I was subliminally influenced. Immediately afterwards, I made an atypical, unprecedented misjudgement while driving, which caused a serious wreck and exacerbated my pre-existing head injury. I believe this was an attempted hit, because I almost suffered a similar accident one week prior. When I confronted my therapist over the neurofeedbackinduced car crash, her work with the Russians, her relationship with local cult members, and her pedophile father, she became enraged, personally attacked and blamed me, and terminated therapy. 

HYPNOSIS 

On 21 November 2011, UK Channel 4 aired a program called Derren Brown – The Assassin featuring celebrity Stephen Fry. Hypnotist Derren Brown demonstrated that a person can be influenced under hypnosis to do that which they normally would not then forget the behaviour afterwards. Brown successfully hypnotised a person, programmed him to fire a gun more accurately under hypnosis, instructed him to shoot Stephen Fry upon spying a visual trigger, and to completely forget the incident afterwards. 

Beware of hypnosis, particularly if you are at the start of your healing journey, or if you completely dissociate and lose all memory during therapy. A dirty doctor could do anything to you under hypnosis and you would not recall it. Because unethical hypnosis was used to abuse victims, the mere employment of hypnotherapy is triggering. Further, the victim was hypnotically programmed with hundreds of access codes, so unless the therapist knows those codes, or how to avoid their effects, they could trigger a programmed instruction for the victim to attack the therapist or themselves. 

NLP (Neuro-Linguistic Programming) 

NLP is a way of ‘re-patterning’ the human brain to turn us into super-beings – confident, non-phobic, thin super-beings who can sell coals to Newcastle and know what people are thinking just by their eye movements. It is the theory that we are computers and can be reprogrammed as easily as computers can. You were abused as a child? That makes you a badly programmed computer who needs a spot of instant reprogramming. Forget therapy: just turn off the bit of the brain that remembers the abuse… 

I first heard of Bandler in 2002, when a former US special forces soldier told me he’d watched him, two decades earlier, bring a tiny girl into special forces and reprogram her in seconds to be a world-class sniper… 

If you hear voices in your head, [Bandler] says, tell the voices to shut the fuck up. ‘If you suffered childhood abuse, don't go back and relive it in your mind. Once is enough!’ He says psychotherapy is nonsense and a racket: therapists are rewarded for failure. The longer a problem lasts, the more the therapist is paid. Who cares about the roots of the trauma? ‘Don't think about bad things!’ Bandler says. ‘There's a machine inside your brain that gets rid of shit that doesn't need to be there. Use it! I can give myself amnesia. I can just forget.’ He clicks his fingers. ‘Just like that.’ 

NLP is a subtle form of hypnosis that subconsciously influences victim behaviour. NLP is primarily based on the work of MK-UKTRA hypnotherapist Milton Erickson and psychotherapist Fritz Perls. It was founded in the 1970s by Capt. John Grinder (US Special Forces and Intelligence) and student Richard Bandler at the University of California in Santa Cruz under the supervision of MK-ULTRA anthropologist and linguist Gregory Bateson. In November 1986, Bandler stood trial for the shooting of prostitute Corine Christensen after he left the scene of her murder. Despite overwhelming forensic evidence that he shot Corine, Bandler used NLP techniques to sway the jury who later cried in regret for letting a killer escape. 

NLP is aimed at activating the right hemisphere’s implicit visual and emotional systems and deactivating left brain logic. NLP is used by cult and trafficking network members to gain a victim’s trust, with the goal of manipulating or framing the target. NLP perpetrators employs the following tactics: - 

Glean Information: Observe target’s visual and auditory clues (eye movement, pupil dilation, winks) to determine the target’s brain hemispheric processing preference, method of brain processing and memory storage, preferred sensory system arousal, and honesty. For instance, looking up indicates visual memory retrieval.  

- Establish Rapport: Mirror victim’s body language and speech to make them drop their guard and become suggestible. 

- Use language that encourages visual imagery, to activate the right brain hemisphere which unquestioningly accepts suggestion. (‘Can you see…’ or ‘Look at…’) 

- Elicit emotion in the target’s right hemisphere by leading, language, and having the target visualise the perpetrators desired result. 

- Anchor a suggestion in the target’s mind by using physical cues (e.g., touching the target’s shoulder). 

- Use vague language to induce a hypnotic trance. 

- Use permissive language. (‘Feel free to...’) - Use gibberish to confuse the target and make them accept a lucid suggestion. 

CIA DENIAL APPROACHES 

Anthony ‘Tony’ Robbins popularised NLP which, he claims, has helped ‘people with multiple personalities.’  This is concerning since investigative journalists recently exposed Tony Robbins’ sexual misconduct and his abuse of vulnerable victims. At his conferences, Robbins employs mind control techniques including sleep deprivation, and he publicly berates victims of physical and sexual abuse who disclose in front of large crowds. Robbins said of a rape victim, ‘She’s fucking using all this stuff to try and control men.’ Robbins negated the existence of abuse by attacking the notion of being a victim. He stated at a 2018 conference, ‘…victimhood is now rewarded in our culture. . . it’s now leverage. Someone can now come and make claims about anybody…’ Tony Robbins uses denial to blame victims for reacting normally to their trauma. Denial of sex abuse is a perpetrator trademark. 

Not buying into the ‘victimization narrative’ was a dialogue feature of NLP practitioner Keith Raniere whose NXIVM cofounder was personally trained in NLP by Bandler. In his Twelve-point Mission Statement for the NXIVM sex trafficking operation, Raniere wrote: ‘There are no ultimate victims; Therefore, I will not choose to be a victim.’ 

USELESS PHYSICIANS 

Therapists who possess no relevant knowledge, skills or experience with ritual abuse and mind control, are at a treatment loss when victims like me enter their practise. Few therapists are willing to adjust their usual practise protocol to research an entirely new area of expertise just to accommodate one client’s unorthodox treatment needs. They are busy, and their time costs. 

Ethical practitioners who do possess the capacity to work with victims of organised trafficking undoubtedly come under perpetrator surveillance. That is how child trafficking remains secret. Those who help victims typically find themselves professionally and personally threatened. If the therapist works under the umbrella of an organisation, that organisation tends to stop the therapist’s efforts. If the therapist runs their own business, that business is usually targeted until the therapist is forced to choose between their livelihood and loyalty to the client. 

Therapists are paid to care. No psychologist ever told me their initial reason for entering the industry was to help others. The majority were attracted due to their own unresolved personal issues. A portion were lured to the earning potential of a psychologist, or the travel opportunities it affords. I studied with a student whose goal was to work in New York and enjoy shopping on 5th Avenue. Some are motivated by their passion for research and a desire for social recognition. Many demonstrate unmanaged autism, which would explain why clients are treated robotically and without empathy. An alarming number of therapists seek sexual access to the vulnerable. A student I studied with said when she worked as an administrator for the NSW Psychology registration board in the 1980s, the main complaint she received everyday concerned psychologists taking sexual advantage of their clients. She added that she was raped by a University of Sydney psychology lecturer. 

Psychiatrists and psychologists are trained to listen, feign empathy, and say little during sessions. Clients mistake this silence for intelligence or understanding. Like the proverb says, ‘Even a fool seems wise if he shuts his mouth.’ Therapists follow a clinical script which they began learning from day one of their training. At university, we were made to prepare and memorise such scripts. Our Counselling Psychology lecturer said empathy can be scripted, learnt, faked until achieved. That approach does not work with victims of ritual abuse and mind control, because their visual-spatial processing capacity enables them to read micro facial expressions and detect feigned empathy. Victims dismiss fake therapists as untrustworthy and plain stupid. 

Many clients do not know the difference between psychiatrists and psychologists. Psychologists have a more varied repertoire of therapy interventions compared to doctors. At a minimum, psychologists have studied four years of psychology theory followed by two years of supervised clinical training acquired either through a university master program, or under the supervision of a community practitioner. Master program training is standardised and thus superior. But do not be impressed by a PhD, as this only demonstrates someone can complete a PhD. Most academics are arrogant, left-brain dominant, and cognitively inflexible. 

Psychiatrists study medicine and are essentially drug pushers who attribute most mental health conditions to a biochemical imbalance. Most psychological issues stem from childhood trauma. Psychiatric facilities would quickly empty if doctors adopted a trauma focused treatment approach. Psychiatrists religiously consult their diagnostic bible, the DSM (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual for Mental Disorders), a scientifically invalid collection of opinions. Basically, a group of men on the CIA payroll met and reached a consensus regarding what constitutes mental illness. The DSM has been used to silence victims ever since. Most mental health patients are typically forced into one or more DSM categories. My university psychology class were pressured to squeeze clients into at least one DSM category. If we did not do this, the case reports in our clinical folios had to be edited and resubmitted until we complied 

Medical schools instil an inflated sense of self-importance. The University of NSW repeatedly told their medical students, ‘You are the chosen ones.’ How amusing, considering the average IQ of a medical doctor is 120 and the exceptionality they refer to starts at least two standard deviations above that. Egotistic therapists can’t work with victims of ritual abuse and mind control. In fact, they make the worst therapists in general. Pride and ego will always interfere with the therapist’s objectivity and motivation. Unfortunately, the mental health industry is full of egotists indoctrinated with an us-and-them mentality. 

If a therapist is not altruistically motivated to be concerned for victims, when the client’s condition becomes critical, and the therapist is forced to choose between them and 498 their café lifestyle, registration, reputation, research, business, overseas holidays, long weekends, interstate conference with all-inclusive wine tour, private school fees, regular restaurant dining, latest Tinder date, intellectual pursuits, social recognition, or personal safety – they will not choose the client. Most therapists will sell out and suddenly change a client’s diagnosis to ‘mentally ill’ the moment the client exposes their professional inadequacy, insincerity, incompetence, and unwillingness to deviate from their ‘money for old rope’ routine. 

If a victim bonds with one of these secular professionals for the purpose of processing extreme abuse, they risk being prematurely abandoned at a most crucial time. It is safer not to commence the recovery process at all, rather than die halfway through. And do not think the therapist will take responsibility for their part in the victim’s downfall. They will justify their abandonment according to their code of therapeutic engagement and management, and ultimately blame the victim for their poor choices. The client was after all, just another personality disordered nut, and they have a filing cabinet full of those to fill the void. All mental health workers reserve their perceived right to hide behind a façade of professionalism. Arrogant or not, they will in times of stress, fear, or ignorance, revert to this default setting. Every psychologist and psychiatrist I have ever consulted fits this behavioural pattern. Here is an example: 

I once thought I had found the perfect psychiatrist. This woman claimed to be a Christian, EMDR trained, and highly experienced at working with ritual abuse and mind control. The psychiatrist made a time to see me at short notice. By the time of my appointment, she had watched my Candy Girl documentary plus my Seattle conference presentation. I was impressed. The doctor bulk billed my session to Medicare, listened intently to me, offered sound advice, prescribed a novel medication that I found beneficial, and agreed to be available if and when I ever needed a medico-legal report. Perfect… or so I thought. I remained in light contact with the psychiatrist, sent her the odd text or email. The day came when I needed a medico-legal report. It had been 18 months since my initial consultation with the psychiatrist, when I confidently requested an appointment and a report. I was surprised by her email response: _____________________________________________ 

I have only been able to do … supportive reports as appropriate for patients that I am treating. 

I would have thought your psychologist, GP and neurologist reports are credible ... 

I have not done a psychiatric assessment of you ... but supportive meeting x2 years ago... 

I remember you telling me you are not dissociative... and whilst I accept the veracity of your statement, I have not seen anyone in clinical practice who has experienced severe CSA from preschool age and primary school age who had not had severe dissociation ... even DID... as an adaptive response to deal with intolerable ... Complex PTSD does in my clinical view involve dissociation... 

I also have some concern that being interstate makes my clinical opinion potentially vulnerable ... I have had to battle in court in the past against a senior colleague who accused me of having ‘a major confirmatory bias’... whilst the court outcome was successful for the victim, I was able to challenge as my assessment was detailed and there was medical and protective co-oberation. 

It would seem that your residual struggles impacting on your functioning are neurological and somatic predominately ... 

I am involved in current medico legal cases in which I have to be so meticulous.... 

I would have thought you would have had more than enough from what you have gathered already. _____________________________________________ ‘So, she called you a fraud, Fiona?!’ my psychologist exclaimed. 

‘Well, she didn’t exactly say that-…’  

‘Yes, she basically did,’ he insisted. 

I sighed and nodded reluctantly. ‘She might as well have called me a liar.’ ‘

Did she bill you to Medicare?’ 

‘Yes, and I provided her with a GP’s referral.’ 

‘And you have prescription medicine with her name on it?’ 

‘Yup.’ 

‘Then she fucking treated you, Fiona!’ 

‘She’s a blatant liar. I never told her I wasn’t dissociative. I said I’m co-conscious during dissociation, and that my alter switches are seamless due to the sophisticated techniques and equipment used. She watched the Seattle conference video in which I talked all about that, and about the exact nature of my dissociation and integration.’ 

‘Why did she do this?’ 

‘I don’t know. Threatened, I guess.’ 

‘She might have been a setup. Or she’s going to set you up, Fiona.’ 

‘After everything I’ve done for victims all these years, at great personal risk, I ask for one thing, just one report – but no.’ 

‘You’ve done enough. Time to stop saving the world.’ 

‘Oh, trust me – I’m nearly cured of that.’ 

He laughed. 

I sighed. ‘So, can you recommend a new psychiatrist?’ 

‘Err, no.’ 

‘Huh?’ 

‘I don’t think any of them will want to get involved.’ 

‘Why not?’ 

‘Because you’re Fiona Barnett.’ 

* * * 

Alternatively, victims can line up at one of the community-based counselling services affiliated with the church denominations currently under the Royal Commission investigation for covering up child abuse. Non-government organisations dedicated solely to child abuse counselling are poorly staffed and are typically infiltrated with perpetrators. Child actor Sarah Monahan documented how Bravehearts tried to sabotage her lawsuit against the actor who sexually abused her on-set of the Hey Dad TV show. Paul Wilson’s wife was on the Bravehearts advisory board. Following her husband’s pedophile conviction, Bravehearts replaced her with the Bond University lecturer / Queensland Police detective who lied to destroy my psychology career. 

Complex trauma resulting from severe child abuse requires years of therapy. During critical recovery times, multiple weekly sessions need to be interspersed with a residential care facility staffed by experts with specialist training. Unfortunately, no such thing exists in Australia. During the late 1980s and ‘90s, a standard therapy session lasted 60 minutes. The victim of severe child abuse could expect to attend two sessions per week. At university, I was taught that the APS recommended 1.5-hour sessions for highly traumatised victims to ensure they did not leave therapy in a hyper-aroused state. However, income greedy modern practitioners only offer one 50-minute therapy session per week. In accordance with industry guidelines, they deduct 10 minutes per hour for writing case notes and reports. Fifty minutes 500 per week is ridiculously insufficient for victims of extreme child abuse to process their experiences. 

Experienced psychologists may charge around $330 per session. Inexperienced or unskilled psychologists are usually desperate for clientele and therefore more willing to be paid $130 per hour to counsel victims of crime. Psychology receives scarce funding from the Australian government. Presently, Medicare will cover about six therapy sessions, which is just enough therapy to trigger a victim to suicide. Psychiatry is completely funded via Medicare and therefore more accessible to victims who have been too busy surviving to earn high incomes. 

The moment you engage a therapist under a government scheme like Medicare, your personal information is recorded in a powerful system that may come back to bite you. Your case notes can be subpoenaed, and your diagnoses used against you in educational, professional, and legal settings. Therapists often operate within clinical teams, attend supervision, and debrief with peers, friends or relatives. In this way, therapists may unwittingly disclose your identity and whereabouts to your perpetrators. If your therapist knowingly reports to the network, they may use their position and connections to set you up for false internment in prison or hospital where victims are silenced. As a precaution, engage a counsellor who ranks low on the mental health power hierarchy, use a pseudonym, and pay in cash. 

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APS MK-ULTRA PERPETRATORS 

The following heads of the APS (Australian Psychological Society) are known MK-ULTRA perpetrators: 

ABBPS Chairpersons 

1955-1956 Oscar Adolph Oeser 

1957-1958 Cecil A. Gibb (Fort Street High School, University of Sydney) 

1958-1959 Donald W. McElwain 

1959-1960 Alfred Gordon Hammer 

1962-1963 Ronald Taft 

APS Presidents 

1977-1978 Peter Sheehan 

1984-1985 Ian K. Waterhouse 

1993-1994 Kevin M. McConkey 

2008-2010 Bob Montgomery (convicted child rapist) 

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‘Fiona,’ my therapist implored. ‘I read Gavan Palk’s reference. That’s the most amazing reference I’ve ever read.’ 

‘I know. I was so good at what I did. I just wanted to work with gifted kids. . .’ 

‘Fiona, would you like me to help you get your registration back?’ 

I closed my teary eyes and shook my head. ‘I mean later, when you’re ready?’ 

‘It’s too late,’ I lamented. ‘The damage is done. Honestly, if AHPRA turned around right now and offered me my rego - I’d tell them to go fuck themselves.’ 

‘Really?’ 

‘My passion for psychology is dead.’

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